......Since March, I have been skating on thin ice.....not literally, but with my weight at TOPS........right on the border. In this group you can be 3# over and lose up to 7# and still remain a KOP, but I have been right on the edge for over 2 months now, and I've decided today...doing some positive self talk....it ends....I'm done. I've been thinking that just one more won't hurt me, of whatever "treat" I may want, but it is that EXTRA one that has gotten me to almost be out of being a KOP. I've noticed my jean capris from last summer are a little snugger, and that surprised me! Then I though, why should that surprise me.......I looked back at my food journal and I see the frown faces I put on several of my days of journaling
It's time to as I'm sure you've heard before...PULL UP THOSE BOOTSTRAPS and get that focus back!! I have two weeks to get my act back together or I will lose my KOPS status, and I WILL NOT DO THAT!!
I have noticed the past two months, that I stopped the OUT LOUD positive self talk, and actually talked to myself inside, that "one more Hershey mini candy bar won't hurt me"! That's NOT true.....especially as we age, and I turned 60 on the 13th!! Now, it didn't help that my wonderful husband bought me a lovely white cake with decadent frosting and a wonderful quart of triple peanut butter (regular) ice cream, but did I have to finish it off within 3 days?? OK, I did share the cake with him and even took some to the elderly care home where my mom lives, but that ice cream just called me till it was gone.....and I GAVE IN! I.....ME.....I made the choice to continue to eat it, and I did not move as much (exercise) as I usually have done in the past! Why not.....after all it was my birthday!!??!! Didn't I deserve it??!!! Ya, but did I have to finish it off within 3 days! It is about portion control...I know that and so do you!
It's a brand new day........a brand new year (with my b-day being over a week ago) for me......and YOU to start anew and get my (your) good habits going again......to get that tunnel vision back! My hubby did not help matters with the b-day treats, however, as he said to me last night after I ate that peanut butter cookie that was out at a presentation on social security that we went to......you need a little more self control. In all the 35 years of marriage, this is the first time, he has ever said that to me, and I think I needed that!! Oh, ya, did I tell ya.......he retired, and his last day at work was 4/30, and now he is here 24/7!!! Now that is something to get used to, if you have been pretty much the queen of your home for those 10-12 hours and come and go as you please, and now all of a sudden, I have to say goodbye, give him a kiss, which I don't at all mind doing, feeling like I need to tell him where I'm going, when I'll be home, etc! It's a new thing for both of us, but with God's guidance and help, we will be OK! I know that for a fact! It's just a little weird, that he doesn't leave to go anywhere in the mornings! He is finishing up the family room painting, loves to tinker with his 2 classic sports cars and he writes comedy too.....and even performs it. Oh, ya, he's a writer for Jay Leno too, so I'm very proud of him, and he deserves to have relaxation and other fun things in his life.....he's paid his dues by working over 40 some odd years!
I'm glad I blogged today.......it feels great, and feels like I may have lost a little weight......it's a huge burden off my shoulders to unload my feelings! Thanks for reading (listening) and may God continue to bless all of you!
Remember this always......YOU ARE SO WORTH IT.......TO FEEL GOOD MENTALLY AND PHYSICALLY ABOUT YOURSELF!
KEEP IT MOVIN!!