OK, not really. But I am annoyed. I'm up THREE lbs this week. Not even week, as i weighed myself Sat and am now up 3 lbs in 4 DAYS.
It's so annoying. There are a number of potential causes:
~muscle fatigue. I swear, when my muscles hurt like they do now, I ALWAYS weigh more. Think I read once that you retain more water as your muscles try to "repair" themselves. Maybe I'm just pulling that out of my gluteus maximus muscle though.
~Not eating a lot, or enough to compensate for the extra classes I'm doing
Anywho. It's annoying nonetheless. It has that potential to throw you into this whole mindset of: You know what? I've done this whole PUSH PUSH PUSH to get healthy and lose weight thing. How about turning it around and going the OPPOSITE direction? How about I see how BIG I can get for a change?
And then I think: Well, surely no one will NOTICE I'm up 3 lbs. I feel a little bloated for some reason (weird because I haven't eaten any grains or other "trigger" foods) but the B of it is, people I swear DO notice. I'm short, so it's like every single little lb is VERY evident, whether it's coming or going. I went from 162 to 154 and people were all "Oooh, I can TELL you've lost weight! " "Looking good!" "What are you doing different?" (and by people here, I mean students, who DON'T know when I'm making the effort to drop weight or not).
Ah well. Aside from aforementioned bloating, I do have to say I feel pretty strong these days. Not to be weird, but I notice it in class, like when I'm doing warmup, and making certain moves, I'm all "Grrr! I can FEEL that muscle!" and for the most part they feel strong & lean. (well, not the ab area. Jello, anyone?)
And sometimes I literally FEEL my muscles to reassure myself it's not just in my head.
So whatever. I'm just gonna keep on doing what I'm doing and not worry too much about it. Except at those moments when I DO worry about it. ha.
My oldest daughter, about to turn 10, has gotten some very funny, disturbing, ideas about body image in her head. She is TALL and LEAN, seriously like 4'8" and not even 70lbs yet, I think she weighs like 64 lbs. Anyway, she is convinced because some of her thighs are moveable...like that fatty part we ALL have, because a leg without ANY fat would just be...wrong, that they are "fat." And her dad, OMG, I could punch him, said to her "Well you can pretty much eat whatever you want cuz you're always gonna be tall and skinny like me" isn't helping matters much. I can't even tell you how many discussions we have had this week about body types, strong/healthy vs. "skinny" etc. The kicker is, I haven't even figured out 100% how to love and accept MY body most of the time, so how the heck am I supposed to instill that in her? Yesterday she kept pulling up her shirt going "I'm skinny here" and I can just see future issues on the horizon. As much as I AVOID using word like "fat" and "skinny" they have found their way into my house, and into my girl's heads (yes, the 6 year old has expressed frustration, only once so far that I've heard, about a shirt making her look "fat").
I mean, I let my scale/number obsession loose on Spark through my blogs, but I ALWAYS stress to my kids that i work out and eat well to be HEALTHY and make sure my body runs properly. I tell them everyone has a part of their body they don't LOVE, but we need to remember that it's serving a very important FUNCTION and take that body part away from us altogether, well, I bet we'd miss it.
Enough rambling for today. I've been up way too early all this week. Makes me loopy. And wordy.