Wednesday, May 22, 2013
This is the "slow day" on my week that is running on adrenaline and emotion. I have no events to attend tonight--so I am getting to the pool for the first time since Saturday. I sure miss the workout time and how it helps my body. It has been an awesome sort of week, but sitting on hard wooden chairs, auditorium seats, and bleachers has taken a toll on my body and back. Actually, if it weren't for this stress, my back is holding my own since the last injection--but it has been hours of the sitting...
Marissa won a nice $1500 scholarship for her accomplishments in the arts on Monday. There was an appropriate audience gasp when they listed all of her accomplishments and activities in music. (Of course, her father and I were not shocked--personally, I was counting to make sure that they hadn't missed anything, ha ha.) Anyway, we have one more awards program for her on Thursday, the music awards. Last night was the band concert--she directed one of the songs and I would like to say it was awesome, but the entire band was off its "A game" last night. She had much better results when she directed the choir on Sunday. Their student conducting program is a wonderful addition to the curriculum for music students. They also added in a college class in music appreciation that she also got to take, so she will be leaving for college with a lot of quality music education under her belt.
As for me, things at school are not my "A game" either. The children do not seem to care or want to do anything that I have chosen or planned and they are not focused on anything academic. We have three more days this week, a short four day week next week, and two days that are really totally scheduled the first week of June. I was feeling pretty low yesterday because of the fact that I spent my day trying to get the kids' attention and felt like I was floundering. Now, I have been an educator for over half of my life--most of my adult life--and I expect some of this. It started over three weeks ago, however, and I am weary of dealing with it, Add in a bunch of other issues yesterday that I wasn't planning on and well, "ENOUGH1" I don't think there is much of a point in "beating a dead horse."
I have more photos and videos to share at some point, but the reality is that I have to get Micah up for school--he is only a lowly freshman who has to attend school and I am an even more lowly teacher who has no say in anything. I am ready for my break, although I am home for only a few days before my medical treatments and surgeries take front and center. I am having major surgery on June 10 which is five days after school is out--and this procedure which will get rid of a lot of scar tissue and extra tissue that is supposed to help my back. This procedure will keep me out of the pool for the biggest part of my summer break. A month later, on July 12 will be my rotator cuff repair. Then, 2 weeks after that on August 1, we return to school. I am already mourning all of this and the limit on my pool and outdoor pool time this summer break and it isn't even here yet. I do think I will go back to work new and improved and I hope I am ready, beyond these feelings I am having right now. There are a lot of politics going on in our school right now, though, and it is shading my feelings greatly.
Anyway, today is my break from a lot of rewarding and exciting, but tiring events for a day. I am going to use it to refresh myself and to get into the pool this evening for some much needed down time. We do have a holiday weekend this week and that is to be enjoyed as well.
Have a great week--it is time for me to get ready for school!!