Wednesday, May 22, 2013
I am going to limit my overtime from now on. I think I am going to try limiting it to 15 hours a week.
Yesterday I found myself where I haven't found myself since October 20th. I was crawling into bed and eating carbs. I feel kind of sick this morning.
This morning I am asking myself if I really need to work 60 hours of overtime a pay period. I am going to say no.
I want to take Zumba on my days off and there are just other things I want to do. I also don't like feeling like this when I am working or feel like this while I'm off.
Part of my stress this week is adjusting to my son being home. He comes to me, stands in front of me and asks, 'What's for dinner?' He's seriously been doing this forever. Like a baby bird - I'm not kidding.
Well, I didn't cook every day when he was a kid, we ate a lot of fast food, so he is in part expecting me to throw my hands up in the air and give him money for Jack in the Box. That isn't happening yet.
Even now that I cook, I don't cook every day. So.... he has had to fend for himself. He probably misses the cafeteria on campus quite a bit.
He's still managed to clean out my cupboard and go through a number of large cartons of milk in his short time home. He also tears through coffee and creamer.
It's very odd to me. LOL I gained most of my weight by eating fast food, not moving, and binging on things like crackers. Oh, and cookies I would get from Kroger's bakery.
He's welcome to anything in the pantry but I looked in there yesterday and was shocked by how empty it was.
Anyway, like I said, this isn't happening. I am not returning to unconscious eating, I will not find myself so tired that my only refuge is my bed, and I won't be left without any healthy food to eat in my environment.
Today I work 9 hours of overtime but have time off throughout the day. I am going to use this time to relax and regroup.
I'm sure I will do some Zumba. I am kind of an addict. I am thinking I will use all of the time I can schedule off to schedule time off to go to the Zumba classes I want.
Anyway, so that's what's happening today.
Wishing everyone the best.