Entry #2 - Frustrated in St. Louis
Tuesday, May 21, 2013
Hi SparkPeople Community.
I know I'm not the only one experiencing personal pain right now. When my divorce hearing was way off in the future, I could block it out, and could stick with my eating and exercising program more days than not. As the date gets closer, this event I didn't ask for nor approve of, it begins to dominate more and of my thinking, and that leads to serious binges of emotional eating and getting seriously off track in my SparkPeople program.. I thought I was being good by staying away from Dairy Queen. I thought cereal would be an acceptable binge eating compromise over high fat selections. Was I ever wrong! That would be true if I didn't eat the whole #@%&! box of Cocoa Krispies in one sitting. I have made a commitment to myself to be accountable. I used to not track my occasional emotional eating binges, but that didn't help them go away. I tracked it today, and found out that I consumed over 4000 calories. So much for my great weigh-in this morning. I'm beginning to wonder if I will ever reach my goal, because its seems to always be 1 step forward, 2 steps back for me. Do you ever feel like that guy in the story that is pushing a stone up a hill only to have it roll back down over and over again. I can relate to that guy right now. Hopefully, you are having better day than me!