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Entry #2 - Frustrated in St. Louis

Tuesday, May 21, 2013

Hi SparkPeople Community.

I know I'm not the only one experiencing personal pain right now. When my divorce hearing was way off in the future, I could block it out, and could stick with my eating and exercising program more days than not. As the date gets closer, this event I didn't ask for nor approve of, it begins to dominate more and of my thinking, and that leads to serious binges of emotional eating and getting seriously off track in my SparkPeople program.. I thought I was being good by staying away from Dairy Queen. I thought cereal would be an acceptable binge eating compromise over high fat selections. Was I ever wrong! That would be true if I didn't eat the whole #@%&! box of Cocoa Krispies in one sitting. I have made a commitment to myself to be accountable. I used to not track my occasional emotional eating binges, but that didn't help them go away. I tracked it today, and found out that I consumed over 4000 calories. So much for my great weigh-in this morning. I'm beginning to wonder if I will ever reach my goal, because its seems to always be 1 step forward, 2 steps back for me. Do you ever feel like that guy in the story that is pushing a stone up a hill only to have it roll back down over and over again. I can relate to that guy right now. Hopefully, you are having better day than me!
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    emoticon Sorry for your emotional pain right now. A wise person once told me "don't eat your emotions, feel them". If you are sad, be sad. If you are angry, feel fact, it can really fuel your workout. Get mad and work out harder! LOL.
    That is the best advice I can give you. Just deal with the emotions as they come so you can heal and be whole.
    Here is to a better day.
    Missourians! Team
    1765 days ago
    Took me a while and gave myself permission to get through the pain of the divorce before I got my diet footing. You might consider looking into counseling or a Divorce Care group in your area. Hang in there. Tracking is a real eye opener. Good for you.
    1766 days ago
    Hang in there and remember that tomorrow is a new day. Try not to let this trigger you into a spot you dont want to be in by letting it stop All of the progress you have made. I can definitely get where you are coming from because I have been in family court for 3 of the last 4 years, none of it by my choice. It is so easy to let the stress send you back to that bowl of cereal or whatever the poison is that you pick (any sweets for me!). Yes it is shocking to you that you had 4000 calories. But it is good that you still acknowledged it and tracked it. So now you can say ok, I definitely blew it, but this is not going to get the best of me. Look how far you have already come!! The best thing you can do for yourself is treat yourself better, forgive yourself, dont panic until it is time to panic and take it day by day. You CAN do this!!

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