Tuesday, May 21, 2013
Hi Everyone. The date has been set. We will assist our Precious Javk over the Rainbow Bridge at 11 AM on Thursday. Anthony is taking the day off so we can be together. Jack is having a really bad day today, so I know we are doing the right thing, but oh God, it hurts so bad! As it turns out for the next 2 semesters I will be teaching online classes from home and I just don't know how I will do it without my sweet boy slapping me on the leg to remind me to give up on work for awhile and play! No more toe nails tapping on the wood floors! No bark startling barks to remind me to check outside! No more warm snuggles.... Tail wagging welcomes home.... Slobbery doggie kisses.... It hurts, it hurts, it hurts!
Also, Dad is getting very depressed and his roommate is nearing time to go home. Dad will be more alone without Tom and Tom's terrific wife, Pam there. Dad is refusing to shower now. This is very weird. He says they just spray him off like a cow. That may have happened, but I told him it may have been the one aid who did that and he should give them another try. Today he actually had body odor. Plus, his hand stays curled so it gets funky smelling too. He doesn't seem to be making progress and I'm afraid it is due to his depression and frustration.
I wish I could fix everyone. I know better, but I wish I could. While I'm at it, why don't I cure cancer and solve world hunger?
I just have a heavy heart. I need to help Jack to the living room so I can feed him. Thank you all. Keep those encouraging words and prayers coming! We all need them!