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Back After Ten Weeks Away

Tuesday, May 21, 2013

I'm ready to put some time into SP, now that I've taken a 10 week break from it.

The thing I've missed the most is encouraging others on how they are doing. I also missed the accountability to you, my SparkFriends. I know I need other people in my life to spur me on.

One thing that has changed is that I think I'm finally able to say I am attending to my body with the purpose of taking care of it and being healthy. I did gain 6 pounds, and struggled with binges. I don't want this to be about how much I weigh. I want to be a good steward of the body that is on loan to me while I live here on this earth. I want to be healthy and have a healthy relationship with food. Not using it to self-medicate. But to nourish and enjoy in moderation. I want to get to the point that I don't have binges.

I am dedicated to calling on God for help to catch myself before diving blindly into a binge. When I start a binge, the only thing that stops me is if I run out of sweets or I get so full I can't eat another bite. I'm becoming very aware of the thoughts that run through my head leading up to a binge. I am looking forward to (and am hopeful this will happen)
having a healthy non-binge oriented attitude toward food.

I'm praying, but I also have recruited my husband to help me. I am doing my best to only make trips to the grocery store or gas stations (candy spot for me) with him. If I go alone I am in danger of stocking my cupboards with binge trigger foods.

Another thing I'm trying to do is not eat until I pause in front of my plate and be grateful for it and be sure I'm not eating out of emotion but that I have a calm, stress-free feeling while I eat. Practicing some mindful eating.

I tried not tracking food, but I realized that not tracking doesn't work for me. I've tracked since the year 2000. I figured I shouldn't knock something that works for me.

Something really cool happened last week. My hubby bought me and assembled (with my 21 year-old son's help) a brand new elliptical! He rigged up a TV on a tripod right in front of it. It is so cool! I had quit my membership at the Y because the only thing I was doing there was using the elliptical two times a week. Hubby didn't use the membership and now I can see him getting use out of my machine too!

I want to renew SparkFrienships and make some new friends along the way. I hope you all have a great night and a healthy week ahead.

Member Comments About This Blog Post:
LARISSA238 5/25/2013 10:04PM

    Welcome back! You have been missed! I'm so glad you have a good way to work out at home! *hugs*

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_JODI404 5/22/2013 9:02PM


So good to see you back! I'm glad to hear you are doing well. You new elliptical sounds fantastic!

Sounds like you have some good solid plans in place to help keep your lifestyle healthy!

emoticon back! You were missed!

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KNYAGENYA 5/22/2013 3:25PM

    Welcome back. I missed you.

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KANOE10 5/22/2013 8:37AM

    How fun to get an elliptical. You sound like you are ready to take positive steps and to get back on track.

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POPSY190 5/22/2013 6:10AM

    Good to have you back. Also great to hear you have such support at home - it makes a lot of difference.

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ANNEMAC5 5/22/2013 12:18AM

    emoticon nice to have you back. You will soon shift that gain. Nice gift from DH I have the same habit of buying treats when I get petrol but last time I made an effort and got sugar free mints

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    Hi there! So glad you're back from break. Missed you. emoticon

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KELLIEBEAN 5/21/2013 7:43PM


Good to hear from you again. Congrats on the elliptical! I'm glad your husband is there for you.

I hope you are having a wonderful evening!


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