Tuesday, May 21, 2013
I'm ready to put some time into SP, now that I've taken a 10 week break from it.
The thing I've missed the most is encouraging others on how they are doing. I also missed the accountability to you, my SparkFriends. I know I need other people in my life to spur me on.
One thing that has changed is that I think I'm finally able to say I am attending to my body with the purpose of taking care of it and being healthy. I did gain 6 pounds, and struggled with binges. I don't want this to be about how much I weigh. I want to be a good steward of the body that is on loan to me while I live here on this earth. I want to be healthy and have a healthy relationship with food. Not using it to self-medicate. But to nourish and enjoy in moderation. I want to get to the point that I don't have binges.
I am dedicated to calling on God for help to catch myself before diving blindly into a binge. When I start a binge, the only thing that stops me is if I run out of sweets or I get so full I can't eat another bite. I'm becoming very aware of the thoughts that run through my head leading up to a binge. I am looking forward to (and am hopeful this will happen)
having a healthy non-binge oriented attitude toward food.
I'm praying, but I also have recruited my husband to help me. I am doing my best to only make trips to the grocery store or gas stations (candy spot for me) with him. If I go alone I am in danger of stocking my cupboards with binge trigger foods.
Another thing I'm trying to do is not eat until I pause in front of my plate and be grateful for it and be sure I'm not eating out of emotion but that I have a calm, stress-free feeling while I eat. Practicing some mindful eating.
I tried not tracking food, but I realized that not tracking doesn't work for me. I've tracked since the year 2000. I figured I shouldn't knock something that works for me.
Something really cool happened last week. My hubby bought me and assembled (with my 21 year-old son's help) a brand new elliptical! He rigged up a TV on a tripod right in front of it. It is so cool! I had quit my membership at the Y because the only thing I was doing there was using the elliptical two times a week. Hubby didn't use the membership and now I can see him getting use out of my machine too!
I want to renew SparkFrienships and make some new friends along the way. I hope you all have a great night and a healthy week ahead.