Tuesday, May 21, 2013
I find my job confronting and difficult. I am a closet workaholic and spend too much time at work. Many times, I see the ugly side of life and part of my job is attempting to help people choose a different path.
I hover between knowing I can make a difference and being angry at my own sacrifices to do this. The struggle within and the reduction of ego is an ongoing and exhausting process.
I stumbled on this idea when I was in the midst of my seemingly never-ending bouts of depression. The stripping bare of the reasons for your actions helps you to recognise the important stuff.
The accumulation of wealth means nothing, the manipulation or hold on others is worthless, your standing in the community is fleeting and hollow...
So what is life all about?
I don't know. What I do know is that the giving of yourself selflessly results in calmness and authenticity. There will always be times when you stumble because there are many lessons to learn.
Lessons for forgiveness, for reflectiveness, for gratitude. And looking after yourself.