Tuesday, May 21, 2013
For some time now I have been having a terrible time eating at lunch. I plan a healthy lunch and eat it, but right afterwards I am still looking for food. I end up eating tons of calories by eating all sorts of things. I cannot find an emotional reason, but maybe, if I really had to come up with something, I'd say it was loneliness. I think I am filling the lonely spot with food.
Let me explain to you what I am doing. Today for lunch I had a great meal. I really enjoyed it. A piece of Gorton's grilled salmon with a salad made with romaine lettuce, cucumbers, onions and tomatoes. I used Ken's lite Italian dressing with basil and romano. Normally I used Great Value Fat Free Italian dressing. No sooner was I done than I went to the kitchen for more food and ended up making myself 1 cup of white rice with tons of margarine and 1 slice of fat free cheese. After I woofed that down I had some nachos and chipotle cheddar Cheez-Its. I went out to mow the yard and when I came in I made two slices of double fiber wheat toast, again with tons of margarine and some more nachos. Then i made a single serving cup of mac 'n cheese. That is ridiculous!!!!!!!!!!!!
I am thoroughly ashamed of how much I am admitting to eating. I know I have a problem but I am at a loss on how to cope with it. Does anyone have any suggestions? I have had some suggestions and even emailed Sparkcoach who had some good ideas. I am just having trouble initiating the suggestions. I might do good one day but then the next four days I am bad. I know the word "bad" is not good to use, but that's exactly how I feel...like I am being bad.
The other day I found a picture of a stop sign and I printed it out on some paper and included some questions to ask myself before I ate extra food. Nah, that didn't work to stop me. I just ignored the paper and ate anyway. I have a list of scriptures to read before I give in to eating but that doesn't work either. I don't know if I have a mental block when it comes to eating or what. I almost feel as if I have given myself permission to eat all I want especially at lunch. I don't have a problem with any other meal. I eat a good breakfast and usually a good dinner. Most days I have two healthy snacks. I also drink at least 10 glasses of water a day
Does anyone else have this problem or do you have any suggestions as to how I can stop this over-eating?? I am considering professional help. I just want to gain control over my life again!!!!!!!!