It has been a while..
Tuesday, May 21, 2013
So, here I am. Looks like I haven't had a blog entry since 2010. Now, here I am in 2013!
Things have been going awesome in so many ways. Got a career going for real now. Finished school. Building a house. Found the love of my life. We are getting married next year! So many things are going so well in my young life. I am so lucky and thankful for all of it.
Unfortunately, I have a fiance with very different food needs than I do. You see, my fiance has Crohn's disease. It is a constant struggle for him to maintain his weight and almost impossible for him to gain weight. He needs a higher calorie diet. He can't eat high fiber foods too often, since it really makes his symptoms worse when he eats too many veggies, whole wheat foods, etc. Total opposite of me - I have to try to be consistent with smaller portions, lower calorie options, higher fiber foods, lots of fruits and vegetables - or the weight comes on with a vengeance. This has been causing some problems for me ever since we moved in together about a year ago.
Although, I can't blame this all on him. I have gained back about 25-30 pounds, and I am not proud of it. It is definitely more difficult with my fiance's foods around, but that's not the only problem. I am giving into my temptations and eating along with him, even when I don't have to. I have also become much less active within the last year - even though I know so much better! I think it honestly contributes even more than the food issues. At least when I had bad days with food, I could have been burning off extra calories. That has not been happening. Since I did a half marathon in June of 2012, my activity level has steadily dropped off.
There are a few reasons this needs to change.
The other day, I got into a car accident. I was mostly okay, no major injuries. Just some soreness and stiffness left over and some bumps and bruises. But my car was pretty wrecked. It really opened my eyes. I could have been seriously hurt. Even a slightly more major injury could have impeded my ability to walk for a short time, impeded my ability to run and exercise and go outside. It could have been so much worse. It really makes you realize how much you take for granted. Something I didn't even see coming could have changed my life drastically. This was a motivation that I needed. I need to start becoming accountable to myself and using the body that I have been given. And take care of the body that I have been given.
Another major motivator is a big one for the ladies - I am getting married in a year! More than a specific goal weight, I want to feel the fittest and healthiest I have ever felt on that day. That is my major goal for my wedding day, much more than a number on a scale.
Here is what I have planned so far. This year, I want to complete 3-4 races that are 5KM, and get faster with each race. That's my first goal. With this, I want to continue to do lots of strength training, at least 3-4 times per week. I have some supplies at home now to help me to do this. I also started going to yoga classes, which I LOVE. I am going to continue going to yoga classes at least once a week, whenever my schedule allows. During the winter, I want to continue building up my endurance. Next spring, I want to start doing 10KM races. Again, I want to do a few before my wedding date (July 26, 2014), and get faster with each race!
I need to become accountable again, so I hope to increase my activity on sparkpeople again. The whole website was such a great motivator and tool for me last time. It was also a great way to meet people who encouraged me so much. I know I can do it, because I have done it before. I can't wait to do it again. Feeling healthy and being active and eating right makes me feel so much more like myself. I have noticed so much difference with each pound gained - I am more tired, more grouchy, more difficult, than I have ever been. I know the reason why. And I know how to fix it. It's time to start again.