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Let's try this again.

Tuesday, May 21, 2013

A lot has changed since I've started my Sparkspeople Journey. I met my goals, wore my size 6 dress to my sister's wedding and have gained more confidence.

Then I went back to my old ways. Eating out too often, constantly snacking and a vicious cycle of mindlessly eating then feeling guilty.

Well, this has to stop. At 137 pounds and 5"6, I'm not considered 'overweight' but every now and then I check out my butt in the mirror and think, "Gosh, this can be toned". It's as if I'm constantly fighting a battle between my urge to binge and my rationality. I know that junk food isn't good for me, but I reach or it. Granted, I've improved a LOT over the past year. I enjoy working out and I can walk into a store without lunging towards the chocolate bar on the shelf.

It's now time to lose those 7 pounds. I can do it, I've done it before. I don't want this to become a vicious cycle of losing weight and gaining it back. I have to start appreciating and taking care of my body. Why eat trash when I should treasure my health?

I'll be posting here every day. I have this irrational fear of failure that I believe holds me back...Yet, I love to write. So maybe if I cope by writing and expressing myself rather than STUFFING my emotions away, I'll sustain change in the long-run.

When I get home from work today, I plan to go to my room, put on my exercise clothes and work out. Sitting and relaxing first seems to dilute my motivation.

Here's to day 1 and here's to sustaining change.
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