Tuesday, May 21, 2013
I am finally down to 214, its not my goal but it is progress. At the beginning of this year, I weighed myself at my heaviest ever 230 lbs. While 16 lbs isn't a lot for 5 months, I know beyond a shadow of a doubt that I will never see those 16 lbs again. My sister managed to lose 50 lbs in 5 months and while it made me feel like I wasn't making progress I know she is probably going to see most if not all of it come back since she lost it by only eating one meal a day. From where I am standing now, I can see all the progress I've made. I've fallen here and there but I have gotten up, and dusted myself off. I rarely go out to eat, but when I do I order water to drink. No more going through two 32 can cases of soda (not even diet anymore), no more ordering coffee (or Frappes) when I visit Books-a-Million, no more mindless snacking on chocolate, chips and candy. My new comfort foods are salad, and if I want something sweet strawberries (not dipped in chocolate). No, sparkpeople.com hasn't recorded or rewarded me for 16 lbs because I signed up and then didn't use it for a really long time. I had to wake up and stop making excuses for me being overweight. My parents did in fact help me become overweight, but I am an adult now. I am in charge of me. I am also in charge of a two year old. Hopefully, he will never have to worry about being unhealthy or overweight. I hope when my high school reunion comes around I will not be self-conscious and talk myself out of going. Remembering all the people who made fun of me for being "fat", the people whose words still haunt me throughout my journey. They say words can't hurt you, but they do. I will break out of the "fat chick" mold. I will continue on my journey. I will meet my ultimate goal of 105-95 lbs and of healthier eating.