When I was sparking the first time around, I was selected to be a SparkPeople motivator (hence the little badge on my site). I've never forgotten that and how good it made me feel to know that I was helping other people as much as myself.
Today, the second day of my new journey, I got an email. I am featured on the site today as Motivator of the Day! I can't express how awesome that is. Why? Short story: I am not feeling very encouraged today. Long story? Don't mind if I do.
My sleep last night was interrupted by storms and leg cramps. Then at 3:00, my son decided to start screaming and crying. His diaper was, how shall we put it, pretty intense, so I figured I'd change it and put him back to bed. No dice. For the next two hours, I was up with him. He wanted to be held - but only if I was standing up. I pulled a muscle in my back two Saturdays ago, so standing and holding a 23 pound baby is not very feasible right now. My husband took over. We tried everything: we put him down so he could run around, we walked him around the house, we sang to him, we fed him, we let him cry for 10 minutes... nothing. I finally put an air mattress on the floor, and he had a good time climbing on me, stepping on my face, giving me hugs, cuddling his blanket, drinking some milk, and walking around his room. He even adjusted the night light so it was darker. After 45 minutes of that, I finally put him back in his crib, told him to go to sleep, and went back to bed. Within 5 minutes, he was out. Good. Of course, it was 5:00 and I was due to be up in an hour. Ugh.
So I feel like a zombie today. Tired. Hungry. Just want to sleep. Don't want to move. I want caffeine, not water. Very bad news! But this email inspired me. If I can motivate just ONE person today, I will feel like I've done something great. And that email motivated ME. I will do my best today, and I will feel better than if I stuffed my mouth full of chocolate and whined. That's the old me. The new me says, "Stop making excuses. Other people have it worse than you."
As I drink my citrus-infused water, I feel a sense of empowerment. I had a good first day, and I'm determined to have a good second day as well.