Tuesday, May 21, 2013
I am weak willed and minded . I am easily discouraged . YOu could cut me down but I am different now then I was years ago . we used to square dance . loved it . I allowed a woman to make me quite going . this woman came up to me and said . Your head is to big for your body and you look stupid . your hands are bigger then mine . I am a small bone lady and you are just big. the look she gave me just pushed me right back to school . I never had the backbone to stand up to anyone she said her husband told her not to say anything to me but she could not stop herself . wanted to tell me many weeks these facts . I did tell her why are you telling me this ? If it where something I could change I would but I can not change my head . It is what it is . new teeth can be bought . fat can be lost but not my head . she then turned and walked away . I then could not dance I kept thinking gee my head is to big my hands are bigger then most . I am not worthy to belong to this group of people . then I began to make excuses as to why I can not go to this weeks dance . after a few months of not going husband no longer asked to go . good I thought . but in hindsight I know in my heart this was the wrong way to settle this woman . now my thought went to hit . I should have belted her and made her regret her words but am glad I did not do that . I was a lady . perhaps more then she when she made me self aware of myself . do not spend a min. Worrying about something you can not change . your time should be spend on a worthwhile project . something that matters and not something that is meaning less . just some thoughts in passing .