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New Start Weight. Ashamed but trying to move on.

Tuesday, May 21, 2013

The title says it all. Many of us have been here. We lose a bunch of weight (I was nearing 30lbs) and then we slowly start to pack on the pounds. After swearing vehemently that i will NEVER EVER gian that weight, it is gone forever!!

Well it came back. I fought it every step of the way too. Obviously not well. I kept trying but rarly updated my tracker because most weeks the weight was a little higher than the next. Sometimes I just focused on maintaining and usually could to that for a few weeks, but then the binging on chips happened again.

I know the main reasons
- binging of chips
- not cooking very often (= boring meals = chips taste way better and easy to justify)
- not exercising
-sit around all day long. After work I guess.

So what am I gonna do? Well putting it out here makes me feel a little less ashamed - its been confessed ya know? I can move on.

Action Plan:
*Track food. I'll track calories when I can but if not I'll write out my food to keep me accountable.

*Track the binges too. Its hard to admit them, but I need to hold myself accountable

*Go to the gym 3x for at least 30minutes. Just starting out slow here

*Try to find a bike that will hold my weight in my town *gulp* this one may not be possible

*Take advantage of my summer roommate. She just graduated a fitness program and said she does double classes every morning...she has already invited me to them!

*COOK! I had people over for a turkey feast (homemade mostly-healthy stuff) and i have had little desire to binge. The leftovers are so satisfying and such a treat since I havnt been cooking. Going to remember this...Have leftovers for today only but then I'll have to cook tomorrow.

*Find more things to do. I feel like i go to work (and only about 25 hours right now, looking for job in my field) and then do NOTHING all day. I have a bookclub once a month, and some friends from work and i try to get together for boardgames...but thats it. Oh and I volunteer Mondays with Girl Guides. I need more in my life! Maybe I`ll look for another volunteer place...

So there it is. A confession and a new plan. Breakfast was delicious - toast-jam, milk and grapes.

Going to look up some bike shops...

Member Comments About This Blog Post:
SAMSPARK1 6/10/2013 11:16AM

    One day at a time! emoticon

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TATASTHA 5/30/2013 8:20PM

    we have all been there, the important thing like KATIEM929 says is to get up one more time that you fall

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    It happens. So may of us have been or are in the same boat. The good news is you were on track once & you will get there again! No need to feel ashamed. It's not an easy journey and it's a learning process. The learning never ends. You just have to veer back to the healthy side of the road and everything will work out. :)

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SNOOPY6180 5/21/2013 8:18PM

    No shame. You're right, we've all been there. It's not the choices you've made before that matter now, it's the ones you're making now and later. Good luck! You've just flipped over to a new and fresh emoticon

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TKLBRIDGET 5/21/2013 5:01PM

    Chips are my biggest temptation also. I know the bag says several portions, but if I start snacking the bag ends up being one portion... and in my stomach! The only way I stay away from them is by not having them in the house. Don't be ashamed you need to start again, be proud you haven't given up! I have started at day one so many times, sometimes it seems like every Monday morning is a new beginning. You know what to do, you have done it before and you will do it again!
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DAWNSJOURNEY 5/21/2013 3:49PM

    here are my two cents..

I am 280 and bike without problem.. IF you go to a local bike shop they will help you. My bike shop was awesome and they fit the bike to me. .I got a hybrid Specialized.. I love it.. it wasn't cheap but to me it was well worth it.

You can do this, you have done this.. Day by Day , one step at a time.. emoticon

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HILLSLUG98239 5/21/2013 3:41PM

    No shame! It's okay to feel disappointed in yourself because you know you can avoid that trap, and pledge to do better, but shame is harmful.

Maybe I'm just adamant about that because I've grown so weary of our society's tendency to shame fat people (even though I do it myself). If shaming fat people worked, we'd all be thin.

But you know the rewards are worth the hard work, and I have confidence you will succeed!

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SWEET_CAROLYN 5/21/2013 2:12PM

    Do not feel ashamed! We all go through the same things you have!

First off, congrats for making an effort for health! It is hard to get motivated and to stick with it - getting the point to DO something is tough and you need to pat yourself on the back for this one!

Secondly, I love your plan. You are tackling all corners of your life - food, activity, etc. Keep it up and always remember: one bad day doesn't have to bring down your healthy lifestyle!!

Keep it up!!

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MAPLECANDY3 5/21/2013 10:29AM

    I love you girls! So supportive :)

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JESSERMOVICK 5/21/2013 9:53AM

    You lost 30lbs before. You can do it again! I am proud of you for picking yourself up and moving on! emoticon

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KATIEM929 5/21/2013 9:34AM

    "Fall down seven times, stand up eight." The important part is to pick up and keep going....learn from the past, but know it doesn't define your future. You can do it!!
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