Tuesday, May 21, 2013
So I went to the doctor yesterday. I went because I've had enough of my headaches and the constant weight gain. So the headaches are tension headaches with unknown cause so she gave me a muscle relaxer to take when I get my untouchable headaches that last for almost 2 days at a time. She also definitely wants me off of one of the meds that the psychiatrist put me on last year because one, it causes you to gain weight, two it's at too high of a dose, and three it's addictive, and four it makes depression worse. And I know I'm already addicted to that crap because I tried to wean off of it and I got so lightheaded and shaky and all other kinds of things that I chickened out thinking something was wrong and started taking it at full dose again. So she gave me a plan to wean off of it her way and essentially told me to suck it up and push through the withdrawals because there's no way around it. I have to get off of it and my body's not gonna like it for a while. I did successfully wean myself off the other medication with no ill effects, so that's good. She also gave me this other med that's supposed to help prevent my headaches. I guess I gotta give that one time to kick in because I woke up with yet another one this morning. But I made myself get up and workout anyway. I'm proud of myself for that one. Now she wants to keep my depression under control because right now it's really not since I have no motivation to do much of anything as my last blog denoted. So she's putting me on this other antidepressant that's supposed to not make you gain weight for a while. I hope it's not forever because I hate being reliant on pills to get through things. I really do. And here's the last part. Since I've gained about 40 pounds in 8 months, she wants to closely monitor me and get me losing weight again. So to help with the depression about my weight, I'm not supposed to get on the scale except at her office for a while and I am supposed to take a walk in the sunlight every day. I'm also supposed to come in every 4-6 weeks for accountability on losing weight and to make sure I'm doing okay on the meds and adjust if necessary. So hopefully I made the right choice in going to her with my weight gain complaints. Maybe since now I have to spend money every month to go to the doctor I'll get that extra motivation to get moving and make everyone, but mostly myself, happy. Anyway, that's how that went. Thought I ought to share. I am going to try to get back to being there for everyone again by reading blogs and that. I know I haven't lately and for that I'm sorry. I'm trying. Anyway, I better finish breakfast and get to work. Not that I want to. But I have to. I'll catch you all later!