So sorry my friends, I just need to vent a little bit!! I normally try and keep a lid on it and not get negative. But sometimes... sometimes you just need to get it out there and let it out from inside. Well, this is one of those times.
I made the mistake of stepping on the scale on Monday after my normal Saturday WI. According to my scale I have gained 6 pounds!
Logic dictates that it can't be real. I couldn't possibly have eaten enough food to gain an extra 6 pounds of fat or muscle in 2 days. I know that... BUT... knowing and feeling are two very different things. And right now, I'm not feeling so good.
I also know that my body is still adjusting to being on my new synthroid levels. It always takes me a little bit to adjust. I get antsy, my appetite is always off, I have a little trouble sleeping. It's normal for me. It will settle down by next week. Even that isn't making me feel better today!
What's wrong with me???
I didn't eat anything crazy. I was low on my normal water intake over the weekend since I had been doing a bunch of running around. But low for me is still 8 glasses. Normal is 10 - 12. I still don't think that's enough. No, can't blame TOM either. I have no CLUE! That's a little frustrating too.
On top of it, work has gotten pretty stressful. It will settle down. Honestly. I'm just trying SO hard to play catch up and wrap up on a whole bunch of loose ends. I'm using reagents I didn't order, piecing things together... it's driving me nuts! I'm a planner and an organizer. I'll get through it, I'm just trying to do it with my sanity in tact! Our new director has faith, is supportive and is looking forward to reaching the point when I can be planning rather than catching up with things. I hate to see things expire and I hate to rush science. Especially when I'm dealing with equipment that has a personality all it's own. Some of my coworkers laugh when I pat the machine or say thanks; but let me tell you... when you don't, it will bite you in the tush!!
All this combined has led to the perfect storm of very poor sleep last week and this week so far. That's not helping me either... I'm rapidly approaching walking zombie state!
Anyway, if you made it this far... THANK YOU! From the bottom of my heart. You guys keep me focused and coming back here. This will pass! I hope you all are having a great week!
My thoughts and prayers go out to those in Oklahoma!
My Spark Coach lesson for today...