Monday, May 20, 2013
Well 2 weeks of gaining weight and I am back up to my starting weight (this time around) which is my heaviest so far. I'm trying to not get discouraged but it just seems pointless (i know it's not, it's just how I'm feeling right now). I keep trying and failing. For some reason I just can't stop impulse eating. And it ticks me off. I can avoid temptation a couple times but then I just dive head first into a binge. It sucks and I can't seem to stop.
Idk what to do to stop. It's very discouraging that even though I try really hard I can't stop the impulse binging. I don't even have to be craving anything at the time. Today I went to McDonalds with every intention of just getting a little kids meal so that I eat something and can relax. I walk away from the counter with a tray with a big mac, large fry, large coke, and mcdouble. And of course I don't want to tell my husband the truth because he's trying to lose weight and doing VERY well. I just feel so ashamed about it.
Hopefully next week's weigh in will show a loss, or else I am looking at a new heaviest weight. :(