Monday, May 20, 2013
Yesterday I decided that I just wanted to go back to paleo for a month. So Until June 17th I will be having a juice for breakfast, a juice snack and then 2 paleo meals with a heavy concentration on raw and cooked veggies.
The scale stayed the same today, but I had ham yesterday :D LOL
I do last longer exercising, so I did 45 min today.
I am hoping that the body will adjust to the changes, and the weight will continue to decrease. Even though the scale as remained between 2-3lbs over my lowest, I look like I lost more weight. So Inches are moving and the body is shifting. I love the new shape. I actually have a waist!!!
I am still sleeping well, but am noticing that I am not sleepy as early as was with the juicing.
Will be making Kale chips tonight to just have something crunchy to munch on.
What I am finding challenging is the following:
While on Juicing I had no problem saying no to eating things. But now that I am "allowed" to eat I am finding it hard to avoid things that caused issues before. So why is it that my brain is blocking my "60 days of fasting". I am eyeing chocolate - so I asked sis not to bring it in the house. I am avoiding honey, as I think it could trigger cravings. I am pushing waters and juices and fruit. I want for my brain to understand that Just because I have fears or dealing with "issues" (whether imaginary or real) that I no longer stuff them with food. Yet- it is there.
The one good thing with the 60 days is that my taste has changed. I miss the juices and look forward to my morning one. Then - I get these weird cravings, and I assume it is because I haven't chewed for such a long time_ and I take a bite(of whatever I am craving). It tastes like the most divine thing . By the third bite I want to spit it out. Ugh...
Ugh.. I am babbling again. LOL. So the point of today's rambling is that my brain is just totally fried. It doesn't understand why I am looking the way I do, why I don't like things I used to, that I think I like things and then spit them out, and why I have an obsessive thought of me going back to old habits. Say What????
LOL I think it is time to go paint.