It's simply exhausting...
Monday, May 20, 2013
To make excuses about why I cannot workout
To allow myself to eat poorly for weeks on end
To go shopping for new clothes and realize I've actually gotten bigger
To try on 10+ outfits because I don't feel good in any of them
To roll my eyes when my husband gives me a compliment because I feel it's a pity compliment
To feel non-sexy when I try to dress up for date night
To look at pictures from when I go out with the girls and realize what I ACTUALLY looked like
To sit and think about how good I USED to feel when I was consistently running and working out
To look at pictures from a few years ago, when I was trying to get in shape and lose weight, and think "I wish I was back there..."
To feel happy for my friends that are working out and feel healthy, but still feel a little jealous because I want that for myself
To beat myself up for feeling a little jealous because "I'm the only one to blame!"
To want to dress cute, but move back to an old t-shirt because my rolls don't get along with my cute shirts
To feel like crap because I eat like crap
To sit here and go through these things when I KNOW better...I know how to do it, I know what it takes, I know I CAN do it...
To continue down this path...