Sort of in shock!
Monday, May 20, 2013
Well the weekend didnít quite go how I had planned, but I did get some stuff accomplished. I had hoped to get in a good paced workout type ride with my son on Saturday morning but the tennis matches got canceled due to rain. So, I missed that one and the leisurely ride I had planned with my youngest and a friend. Stupid rain! Lol
So instead I went to the gym and killed a set of intervals on the recumbent. It was good and left me feeling great and like I had accomplished something. I did 25 easy minutes then 1 hard minute and 4 easy. Did 3 cycles of those and then did easy spinning for 10 minutes then another cycle of 3 for 6 total intervals. Need to research more on that to see what a good number to do is. I am trying to build up to HIIT intervals. I love the concept, but have trouble psychologically believing that a 20 minute workout can really be more beneficial than 60 minutes.
On Sunday I walked to the gym and worked on my abs and core. It is a 1.25 mile walk there and then another 1.25 back. Pretty easy and flat route so when I got home I grabbed the leash and walked the dog for another 1.5 miles. Got home from that and it was looking like rain, so I cut the grass quick. The rain never came, so I ended up installing a 50 stretch of fencing. Then went to my sonís athletic banquet for tennis. Whew. No wonder I was tired by the end of the day. Got home from the banquet and just chilled and watched some TV.
In an interesting development, I went to the store to look for new clothes. Mainly I figured I was down a size and wanted to see. I am in 44 waist and so I tried on some 42ís. And sort of left in a state of shock. The 42ís seemed borderline too big. It sort of took me by surprise. Granted this was Wally World, but I didnít go anywhere else. Sounds weird I know. It actually shook me a little that I might have dropped that much. Not sure why it shook me so much. I also tried on my college class ring and it almost fits. I am starting in to a state of shock about all this for some reason.
I guess part of it is I have done this before. I am not about 40 from my goal. The realization that I have a lot less to go than I have already lost. In perspective, I have come 2/3 of the way. I started with the goal of losing 120. Honestly when I started that goal seemed so far away and never in my dreams think I would be this close this soon. I think I am getting more apprehensive the closer I get that I will let it all go again. This time I must find a way to keep it off and keep the healthy habits. I think this is one reason I keep thinking about lowering the goal weight. Keep the end further away. Even now, the first thing I think of to reward myself is to go to a buffet for dinner. So, I am going to try the clothing shopping again tonight. See how things really are so to speak.
I know, itís good to be in the position of being nervous about it. I just need to learn to be more comfortable and confident in my choices.