Advertisement -- Learn more about ads on this site.

    HAPPYDOES   22,361
20,000-24,999 SparkPoints

So Much Has Happened Since I Came Here

Monday, May 20, 2013

I couldn't leave for the hospital until I wrote and posted this...

So much has happened since I came here.
I've met so many wonderful Sparkies, and am beginning to truly care about many of them who have come alongside me during this difficult beginning.

I am already seeing so many amazing changes in my life, even though there is tremendous stress as well.

I have lost right at 10 pounds, and 7.5 inches overall...2.5 in my waist and 1.5 in my hips...just by walking three days per week, most weeks, and tracking my food....with a LOT of support and encouragement from my Sparkies.

I'm coming out of my shell, and feeling, for the first time in decades, as though I can actually do this...that I really do have something to offer to this world. I haven't felt this way since I was in my 20s or early 30s and I am in my 50s now. That is what battling with weight issues and social phobia will do to a person if she just gives in to it and lets it win.

I am now learning to take each day as it comes. And I am so grateful for the crisis that came two days ago and that shook my world to the core. Today is new day. Yesterday is gone...forever in God's keeping...and I know that He will judge it fairly and with mercy some day. Therefore, I will not look back on any of my yesterdays. I will take each day as they come, thanking God for them, and living each one to the best of my ability for His glory. And when that day is over, I will give it into His hands for safe keeping until I see Him face-to-face.

ok...NOW i'm gone.

really! emoticon

Member Comments About This Blog Post:
HAPPYDOES 5/20/2013 8:02PM


My master bathroom has a full-length mirror that is about three feet wide on the wall right beside the countertop. While I was putting on my mascara to go to the hospital this morning, I stopped, grabbed my lip liner, and wrote along the side of my mirror, "This is the day the Lord has made, I will rejoice and be glad in it."

I talk to God when I am dressing in the morning, fixing my hair, and putting on my makeup. Many times things will come to mind that I write on my mirror so I won't forget them. They prompt me to stay on track spiritually.

It's so cool that you wrote the very same thing in your comment today. emoticon

You are absolutely right that I have been badly shaken up. I haven't realized just how much. I think I've been sort of holding my breath, waiting for the other shoe to drop. Today, in the hospital room, on the way home, in the parking lot of Walmart, where we stopped to get his medicine, and when we got back home, I found myself beginning to cry, and I would immediately stifle it and say, "I'm ok. I'm alright." And I would be calm again. But it was almost like a great white shark just beneath the surface of the water...lurking...waiting to viciously gobble me up. Now that we have been home for a couple of hours, I'm beginning to relax a little finally really breathe.

Thank you for dropping by and for reading along. I hope my story somehow helps someone.


Report Inappropriate Comment
EMMACORY 5/20/2013 12:12PM

    "This is the day the Lord has made, let us rejoice in it and be glad" thankful that all is working out for you and your husband. You have made a lot of progress in a short amount of time. emoticon

Report Inappropriate Comment
HARMONIUM 5/20/2013 11:23AM

    I am so relieved to learn that your husband's diagnosis is really about as good as it could be under the circumstances. You have been badly shaken up but you've learned a bit about what is most important to you. And it does not seem as if it is candy or salty snacks!

Stay well.

Report Inappropriate Comment
COOP9002 5/20/2013 10:18AM

    Thanks for sharing your journey.

Report Inappropriate Comment

Add Your Comment to the Blog Post

Log in to post a comment.

Other Entries by HAPPYDOES