Monday, May 20, 2013
help...I am a mess.
I have been on this computer for the past 4 hours.
had such good intentions to get some charting done....
instead I went from one blog to the next to each page that I follow to different forums, facebbook, kept checking to see if anyone responded to my posts...I am a crazed woman. I started picking at my face tonight, my poor chin....
I went to the chat rooms and asked someone to tell me to get off the computer and go to bed. Well that got me off the computer and got me to take my meds and washed face and nite gown on but here I sit again on the computer. now I will have to wait for my meds to kick in.
I wish I were more mature self disciplined, more self reliant, motivated.
I did not get any cleaning done this weekend, only about 2 hours total worth of paper work, I did get to the gym today and ate well. Tonight I did not snack because I was sitting so long on the computer that my shoulders started to hurt because I am hunched over. I did not drink enough water today. I did chat with an old friend on line thru face book. I did go see a client in need of a quick nail cutting out of a corner that was hurting her which turned into half an hour because of her wanting to vent, she has many health problems and is in chronic pain. I felt sorry for her.
It seems when ever jeff is gone I lose all sense of control.
I guess I should be proud of the fact that I did get my billing done today.
I did work yesterday in the afternoon so that was good.
I was obsessed with this computer. I was obsessed with people posting to my blog that I now have....
maybe I should not have a blog...
Maybe I have traded one addiction for another.
I have remained alcohol free which is good but maybe I need to give myself a break.
I am crazy......