Monday, May 20, 2013
I had an awards ceremony and dinner on Friday night that was weird for me to go to. I was the one that didn't really know anyone but my boss. We sat at the table and I listened to the talk and when I said something I nervously spoke with my hands. I noticed when the ladies looked at me I would sit on my hands so embarrassed. I don't do really well with groups. I hung in there though and made myself join them for a three mile walk after dinner. That wasn't so bad. I got exercise in and realized there is a part of me that does want to socialize and fit in. I just don't want to change who I am to do it. I won third place in the competition though. SO I am sure I will be putting myself out there more. I just don't want to be someone i am not!