Sunday, May 19, 2013
I've had finals this past week and I was trying to not indulge into too many sweets. I did fine but the feeling of not working out bothered me but I had to give it up for finals. Starting tomorrow, I will begin my workout routine again. Anyway, I came across some knowledge that I feel I need to think through. I have a friend who was over 200 pounds and now she's slimmed down to an amazing size. I am proud of her but in a few seconds I get sort of jealous because I look at her and I think that she must've followed her eating routine and exercise routine and that it was all easy. However, I know I'm wrong and I know it wasn't easy. I look at myself and I can't help but to be picky in certain areas of my body. However, I stop myself and think how harsh I am being and that I should look at my progress overall. I think I've been doing extremely well. I've been eating much healthier and feeling better about making smarter choices. I exercise daily at least three times a week for 40 minutes and more.
So, what was bothering me? I asked myself this question that resulted asking myself another question who am I losing the weight for? Is it for a guy or for me? Is it to appear more attractive and get attention or is it for me? I can honestly say that these questions require deep thinking. It's not easy to answer them because it's quite overwhelming.
To answer the first question, I'm losing the weight for myself. Maybe I had a bad day and I didn't feel like I didn't see results so I felt like I was failing. However, I am willing to continue putting as much effort in my eating and workout routine and I know I will have to be patient for my body to make changes. My wardrobe was part of feeling down about myself and my body. Because of this, I haven't been feeling great about myself.
My goal is to go through my wardrobe and examine what I can continue wearing and what I shouldn't give to donation. I will enlist what I like and what I would really wear in public. Also, my goal is to continue to my workout and eating routine but to eat healthier foods and make smarter choices.