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Smiling while my heart is weeping


Sunday, May 19, 2013

Today has been a very sad time around our house today. The neighbor Bob has been helping so much left this morning with his daughter. She is taking him to NY to live with her. His dementia is really getting bad. He is going to be 88 soon. We know we'll never see him again in the neighborhood. I knew I would cry out loud and couldn't force myself to say goodbye.

Then Bob went to get Rexie up for his morning walk. Sometime during the night our Sexie Rexie Puddin' Pie left us for the Rainbow Bridge. He was our Golden Retriever and our clown. He always seemed to be smiling. He would "dance" with Bob, as he decided Bob was his human. Oh, he'd let me hug him and he'd lick my legs for kisses and bat me with his head for pets, but it was Bob he showered the most love on. As much as I'm heart broken, I have to keep smiling to help Bob. He feels so bad about Rexie. His groomer is the one who named him Sexie Rexie. But it isn't going to help much. I'm so happy he didn't have a long suffering and had a nice long life. After he had been turned in to the shelter 4 different times, I am also happy we were able to give him a loving forever home like he deserved. Bob and a neighbor buried him next to Pepper. They were good buddies, so it only seems appropriate.

So today I'm smiling, but inside my heart is weeping for my personal losses, not for those involved, but yes, selfishly for myself. I'm going to be ok, because I have wonderful memories of Mr Lang and his wife and of our Rexie. But for this time, I'm grieving with a smile on my face.

Peace Love Cure

Ev



Our Rexie Wasn't he a handsome boy?
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1CRAZYDOG 5/26/2013 9:02PM

    So sorry for your losses! Our fur babies are just that . . . our family. It's never easy, but as you say, at least he didn't have long suffering. HUGS to you about your neighbor too. Saying those kind of good byes is so difficult.

Sending your warm hugs and know you're thought of!

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DEBSZOO74 5/26/2013 1:00AM

    I'm very sorry about Rexie. It's so hard when we lose a part of our family. I'm glad you gave him a forever home after the other families gave him up.
I have some wonderful memories of our two golden retrievers, and am sure you have many special ones of your Rexie, too. emoticon

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CHERIRIDDELL 5/24/2013 12:40AM

    My deepest condolences .RExie was a lovely boy.

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RUTHEY01 5/23/2013 4:34PM

    I am so sorry for your loss, Ev. He was a beautiful "person". I know how you are feeling. Our Crystal, 15 year old Black Lab-Husky mix, went peacefully in her sleep 7 years ago. My prayers are with you.

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JANIEWWJD 5/23/2013 12:38AM

    Your Rexie was so beautiful!!!! He is playing beyond the rainbow bridge now and taking care of you from above. Remember him with love!!!!
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SWDESERTLOVER 5/22/2013 10:04AM

    Oh, this is heartbreaking. I'm so sorry about your neighbor and the loss of Rexie. Thank you so much for giving him the loving home he deserved and a wonderful life.

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LADYVOLSFAN1954 5/21/2013 6:38PM

    Oh Ev, I'm so sorry for your losses. Sending you love and hugs,

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AWESOMECHELZ 5/21/2013 6:22PM

    I am SO sorry about your loses, my friend, really sorry. Grieving is a normal part of life but miserable too. I hope you find comfort with your husband and dear friends, and Rexie is a beautiful dog.

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COACHPENNY 5/21/2013 3:53PM

    Dear Ev,

I've been wondering how you are, checked your page and found your blog.

I am so sorry that you are losing a neighbor and your beloved Rexie has passed on to his next life. Handsome & strong, loving & playful...that is how you will remember him. You and Bob gave him such a good life and he returned the favor with his affection.

It is good that your neighbor has family. Even though he will be far away he'll be taken care of and safe. I am sure his family appreciates all that Bob and you have done. emoticon

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PCOH051610 5/21/2013 1:48PM

    Losing a beloved pet and saying a final goodbye to a beloved neighbour all in one weekend must have been truly devastating. I'm so sorry

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MISSDAISY23 5/21/2013 11:21AM

    Hi Ev,

I am very sorry for your losses! Please excuse me as I am not good with words. Yes, Rexie was a handsome boy!

Take care & peace be with you! emoticon

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QUILTINGB52 5/21/2013 9:32AM

    I know exactly how you are feeling!! When our beloved Black Lab died, a bit of myself went with Buck. I dreamed he was in a huge green field, with a creek running through it and he was sitting alert by a bridge - waiting patiently.

Little did I know that my significant other would join him just 10 months later. Then I dreamed that both Wayne & Buck were in that same field, reunited again and they both looked so content.

During the next dream - they were both gone from that green field, on another adventure...without me. (*sigh)

We will definitely 'miss our boys' from our lives. But we each have fond memories that will last us a lifetime!
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JAMER123 5/20/2013 10:20PM

    A beautiful picture, EV. God rest his soul and he will be enjoying the company of all our others.
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4EVERNESS 5/20/2013 8:06PM

    It often makes you wonder as if one is to help prepare you for the other, and yet offset the emotions of the one you thought you were dealing with to help with coping, perhaps for Bob too....

Condolences.

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MOM2ACAT 5/20/2013 3:52PM

    emoticon I'm so sorry for your loss of Rexie.

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PICKIE98 5/20/2013 3:17PM

    It will be three years in September I had to put my Pooky Bear down,, she was almost 16 years old.. I cry for you and smile for Sexy since he is now with his buds, running around, catching sticks, balls and smiling the whole time.
My dad's name was Bob, he died with Alzheimer's and I cared for him until he died in my arms.. I totally know exactly where you are..

Smile for both guys, they are being cared for by their Creator now...

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FANCYQTR 5/20/2013 1:38PM

    I am so sorry for your losses. It is hard to lose either one.

I lost my cattledog boy that I was so very close to in December. I still miss him so much and his brother who I lost the year before. It is very hard to keep smiling through that with your heart grieving so. emoticon

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OBIESMOM2 5/20/2013 11:31AM

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I'm crying with you. I love all 3 of my furkids, and I hate to think of losing any of them (though I know it's likely something I will have to face).

thank you for giving Rex a forever home. Yes, he was very handsome. I know he's running and playing at The Bridge with several of mine. I look forward to seeing all of them again some day.

I know you will miss your neighbor, but isn't it wonderful that he has family who want to offer him a home? That's too often not the case.
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SAMMIESMOM13 5/20/2013 10:28AM

    emoticon So sorry Ev. I have tears in my eyes, I know what that sadness feels like. Hugs, Carol

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RFJSJ50 5/20/2013 9:47AM

    I'm so sorry to hear about Rexie. Our pets are furry family members and are so loved and missed when they leave us. Rexie is with Pepper now, running through a meadow of wild flowers in heaven. I like to think my Buddy and Barney are running beside them.
You and your husband are in my prayers.
Sheila

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AKATHLEEN54 5/20/2013 9:17AM

    He looks like a precious dog and bless you for giving him a home emoticon emoticon

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PEGGYO 5/20/2013 8:04AM

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WISLNDR 5/20/2013 7:14AM

    What a sad day for you, I'm sorry you had to go through this.

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NEW-CAZ 5/20/2013 3:12AM

    I am so sorry Ev for your loss emoticon

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GRAMMAP1 5/20/2013 12:22AM

    To lose two loved ones in the same day must be horrendous. It was good that Rexie could go peacefully. Our 23 yr. old Socks had to be euthanized emoticon last Spring and that is such a hard decision to make. Blessings Jane

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STLOUISWOMAN 5/19/2013 11:19PM

    So sorry for your losses. It's a lot to take in at one time. Cry if you need to.
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-WISPY- 5/19/2013 11:18PM

    I am so sorry to hear about the passing of Sexie Rexie. And to happen so close to the other loss in your life is a double burden.

Grieving is natural and part of our healing and you are so brave to view the situation as you do. Sending loving healing thoughts and warm hugs.

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PIMPINELLAN50 5/19/2013 11:14PM

    I am so sorry for the loss of your beloved dog Rexie,he was beautiful.
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NORASPAT 5/19/2013 11:09PM

    He is most definitely a handsome dog for sure. I was pleased to read you were smiling, while your heart was weeping. Tears of sadness and great love.
I wish I could reach out and give you a big hug, you are such a special lady.
I love the tender words you use. HUGS and much love from Pat in Maine.
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PROVERBS31JULIA 5/19/2013 10:57PM

    Awww So sad! I feel for you!! Our dog Angel had been in 2-3 humans shelters that we know of, before we had her until her life ended peacefully in the back yard where she loved to sun herself and chase the squirrels and rabbits. That was this past September. And that has to be tough knowing you wlll not see your neighbor again. Someday he will be healed but not now.

Take care of yourself!!



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1BEACHWALKER 5/19/2013 10:29PM

    So sorry to hear about Rexie and having to say goodbye to your neighbor. Sounds like you gave Rexie a great life, especially since you got him from the shelter. emoticon

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WALLSTRONG 5/19/2013 10:19PM

    emoticon I'm so sorry for your losses. I hope you can remember to think about all the good times. Thank you for sharing these with us. emoticon

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RISINGBLUESTAR 5/19/2013 10:02PM

    emoticon I am sorry about both situations. No wonder your heart is weeping!

Rexie was adorable! I know how difficult it is to lose a pet. They are family members. It's good that you were able to provide him with a forever home for the rest of his time on the earth.

Grieve anyway you need to grieve.

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TXGRANDMA 5/19/2013 10:01PM

    Huge emoticon to you and all who suffered the loss of your neighbor and your dear dog, Rexie. So glad that you rescued Rexie and gave him a safe and secure, loving home. Poor dogs are at the whim of humans and the way the humans choose to treat them. Rexie hadn't had very good luck in life, until you and he found each other! God Bless you and your family during this difficult time. emoticon

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1STATEOFDENIAL 5/19/2013 9:43PM

    You have every right to grieve in whatever way will help you feel better. It doesn't matter if you were Rexie's favorite or not - you love him and he loved you and that gives you every right to grieve the loss.

Be kind to yourself while you navigate this difficult time.

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LINDA! 5/19/2013 9:38PM

    Oh, this sounds like a very painful time. emoticon

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PONYFARMER 5/19/2013 9:33PM

    Lost my 16 year old Cattledog JoyJoy in November, still cry and miss her terribly. I understand your sadness and get it.

Yes Rexie was Sexie, and a very handsome boy. What a great life you gave him after 4 family's chose to dump him. He was the winner in getting you as his mom.

Sorry for all of your losses, it is never easy.

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SANDRALEET 5/19/2013 9:33PM

    We have the memory of our departed friends emoticon

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HICKOK-HALEY 5/19/2013 9:28PM

    Tell Bob I am thinking of him. I know how the both of you feel!

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LJCANNON 5/19/2013 9:04PM

    emoticon I am so sorry that you are having to deal with this! It is hard losing a Friend, whether it is A Fur Friend or a Neighbor. You and your Neighbor's Family will be in my Prayers!

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MADAMES 5/19/2013 8:40PM

    So sorry!

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MSKIZ69 5/19/2013 8:31PM

    So sorry for your losses--Rexie was absolutely handsome emoticon emoticon

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    emoticon So sorry for your losses.

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