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Smiling while my heart is weeping

Sunday, May 19, 2013

Today has been a very sad time around our house today. The neighbor Bob has been helping so much left this morning with his daughter. She is taking him to NY to live with her. His dementia is really getting bad. He is going to be 88 soon. We know we'll never see him again in the neighborhood. I knew I would cry out loud and couldn't force myself to say goodbye.

Then Bob went to get Rexie up for his morning walk. Sometime during the night our Sexie Rexie Puddin' Pie left us for the Rainbow Bridge. He was our Golden Retriever and our clown. He always seemed to be smiling. He would "dance" with Bob, as he decided Bob was his human. Oh, he'd let me hug him and he'd lick my legs for kisses and bat me with his head for pets, but it was Bob he showered the most love on. As much as I'm heart broken, I have to keep smiling to help Bob. He feels so bad about Rexie. His groomer is the one who named him Sexie Rexie. But it isn't going to help much. I'm so happy he didn't have a long suffering and had a nice long life. After he had been turned in to the shelter 4 different times, I am also happy we were able to give him a loving forever home like he deserved. Bob and a neighbor buried him next to Pepper. They were good buddies, so it only seems appropriate.

So today I'm smiling, but inside my heart is weeping for my personal losses, not for those involved, but yes, selfishly for myself. I'm going to be ok, because I have wonderful memories of Mr Lang and his wife and of our Rexie. But for this time, I'm grieving with a smile on my face.

Peace Love Cure


Our Rexie Wasn't he a handsome boy?
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