Sunday, May 19, 2013
Every so often I get a day that sets me back a bit. It's a day that I get quiet, I keep to myself, maybe bake a little, go for an easy run. It shows up every once in a while and usually just out of the blue. It's the day when the thought of "what is my true purpose meant to be?" shows up. I've learned from the past that when this thought shows up, if I don't pay attention to it, it will nag at me for quite a while. So I'll take the thought and let it play out.
I'm a mother, girlfriend, daughter, aunt, niece, cousin, friend, accountant, runner, household manager and CEO of my own life. For starters. And not necessarily in that order. I'm 43, almost 44, years old and have a ton of experience that I get to call upon to help guide me through all kinds of decisions in life. But in searching through what my actual "purpose" is in life, I get quiet, thoughtful and a little frustrated that it's not exactly pinpointed yet...but I know it's something.
As I go along my journey, finding the steps that will lead me to this place, keeping my eyes open and taking in everything and learning to live life with a passion that I've never truly used before, I find excitement in what feels like a gift that one day I will finally stumble upon. Over the past few years I've been blessed with enough enlightenment to fill me up 20 times, at least. I've learned that the more faith I have and by living true to myself, the more is revealed to me. So I have faith that one day it will be there, patience just needs to be used until that time.