Sunday, May 19, 2013
This was not really a good week for me, though there were some good things as well. I feel as though so much happened and put even more on my proverbial plate than I have had in a long time.
Monday had me pretty deep in a low, one that came on without warning. I was panicky and even went on a manic spending spree. I had a low blood sugar level that just seemed to sneak up on me. I had to leave my designer meeting and eat something at my desk.
Tuesday I had off after an impromptu request to take PTO for. My low was that bad. I knew that I could not be at work like that. I got my oil and transmission fluid changed and returned all of the things that I did not genuinely need from the Manic Monday spending spree. It did not feel like a day off, but I kind of got to reconnect with Justin and Ash. I also gave my credit card to Justin to keep me from manic spending again.
Wednesday still had me in a low, even though I felt a little more grounded. Work had me a little stressed out. I did not get to go for my scheduled run, but I made up for it with a Peak10 More Cardio Interval Burn dvd. We took my son to the open house for kindergarten sign up, and I could suddenly see how much of Ash's little life I had missed out on by getting my school degree and putting in tons of hours at work. I've missed a lot. Now he's 5, getting ready to go to school and I don't connect with him like I should. That was an odd and uncomfortable moment.
Thursday had me feeling a little more out of my low. I thought that it would be a great day. Then I got up to go out check out a tote for a page that I was designing, and collapsed. I was shaking so badly and could not focus on anything or gather my thoughts. My boss went and got the head of HR and my husband. One of the other designers checked my pulse, kept me talking and had me eat a piece of chocolate. I had to be helped out to my car because I did not want to call an ambulance and opted to have Justin take me home. I had a very low blood sugar. I did not see any of the signs of a low and did not even feel hungry. It took the rest of the day for me to really bounce back, and things are a little bit hazy during that low blood sugar period. I don't even remember bumping into my friend while I was being helped out.
Friday had me back at work, tracking all of my food and testing my fasting blood glucose levels as well as after every meal, snack and exercise. They were all pretty low, with a few readings in the danger zone. I was shocked, to say the least, as well as confused. I was eating the same things I always did. I wasn't even hungry and I had to eat because my blood sugar was low. I was so frustrated and scared. Then to top it off, I got ghost chili pepper powder in my eye and to have my cubicle neighbor take me to the bathroom to wash my eye out. I was so done with the day, the whole week, in fact.
Yesterday had my blood sugars frustratingly low again. I felt so discouraged that I almost did not even work out. I ended up doing it, though, because I wanted to test out my new heart rate monitor. I'm taking the calories burned with a grain of salt, but it did show me that I am working way more intensely in my workouts than I thought. I also think that I've been classifying my workouts incorrectly in my fitness tracker. According to my heart rate monitor, I burned 621 calories during my 57 minute cardio workout yesterday. I think that I will shave 12% of that off, since that is the general discrepancy of calories burned, according to several studies, which brings that to roughly 546. According to the fitness tracker, I burned about 381. Huge difference there, which might explain a little bit about my blood sugars. I think that I might be burning more than I thought, including a more intense afterburn. Couple that with an increased weight training program and...well, you get the idea. My body might be a little too metabolically active for what I am currently eating.
I thank God for giving me unexpected tools and helping me with this issue, which has stressed me out more in 2 days than I ever thought it would. I'm used to having and avoiding highs, not dealing with constant lows. I thank Him as well for opening my eyes about my relationship with Ash and how easy it is to get my priorities wrong. He shows us the truth of a matter, even if it is a hard truth to swallow. I even thank Him for the ghost chili pepper incident! Why? Because, barring any permanent damage, it was kind of funny. =P I hope that everyone has a blessed day! I get to do Peak10 More Cardio Strength with some buddies in a couple of hours, so I am excited to see what my heart monitor has to tell me about what I am doing and burning with that. Let's hear it for more information!