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Setting Myself Free

Sunday, May 19, 2013

I am feeling empowered in that my husband and I have eaten out several times and I am continuing to see movement on the scale and a steady loss. Making better choices all around, no matter where I go to eat and speaking up when it is time to choose where we are going to insure that I can have something worthy of choosing at that restaurant.

The other day when I entered into the start page what I weigh and what I want to weigh and it said it would take me 3 years to get there losing approximately 2 lbs a week the fantasy that a short-term diet fix would solve my weight issue finally died. 3 years is not a diet it is a complete life style reworking, from top to bottom.

I do feel that I have made significant strides in this area though. I am not buying or bringing unhealthy foods into my home. I choose only whole grains and I am careful as to the total carbohydrate load per meal...and it is working.

I have let go that being unique and meeting my own special needs is a punishment and my belief in my over all unworthiness that has been at the core of years of self-abandonment.
Letting go of the guilt of sins committed as a young adult, 35 years of penitence, and self-flagulation with food is enough. God does not require any of that. If I am truly his, I have to truly accept forgiveness for my poor choices in the past. God doesn't remember them and it is time for me to set myself free from my own self-condemnation. Those whom he sets free are free indeed. It is time.
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    I love the sound of the determination in your blog. It is awesome that you are accepting who you are and learning to give yourself what you need. It is empowering to make decisions that you know are good for you. Have a wonderful week and keep pushing you are making great progress. WOnderful blog!

    1741 days ago
    Awesome attitude.... continued success on your journey, it does have to be a way of life. I am still try to short circuit things and do quick fixes, and you would think as I come up 60 years of age, I would know better.. emoticon
    1741 days ago
    congratulations! You can do it!
    1741 days ago
  • ANNIE924
    You are doing so great. I know 3 years seems like a long time, but it will go quickly. And just think if you weren't looking after your health now, what it would be like in 3 years!

    You are sounding so positive and I agree that we must all learn to set ourselves free from our past mistakes.

    Good going and God bless.

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    1741 days ago
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