well... so i am sitting here thinking about the next SIX months
the nearest change is that i am switching my shifts at work. i am gonna be workin' midnights!
i am doing this for a lot of reasons. working days is sucking the life out of me. it is a very stressful job, but during the day shift, things are even more CRAZY, the people are VERY demanding and sometimes demeaning. but i am concerned at how this will affect my progress on weight loss and getting fit. i hear all the time, people gain weight (eating lots of food they wouldn't eat regularly eat) not sleeping (although i only get about 4-5 hours of sleep a night anyway... on a good night), and just making your mood depressed. i have never worked nights, i am hoping this will work for me. the positive thing is, it is only two 12 hour shifts a week.
second, my daughter is graduating high school in a couple of weeks!
i am so happy for her, although, it reminds me that i have a college bound baby (yes, i will always see her that way, and a 9th grader (who is my other baby!) kinda makes me feel old!
my husband and i are gonna have our 20th wedding anniversary this october! i feel so blessed!
so many people we know are getting or have gotten a divorce, and so many of my kids friends parents are divorced. but again, when i think of 20 years married, i think of my grandparents (many years ago, when i was a little kid, i thought they are SO old at their 40th! LOL!)
and in two days, it will be 6 months before i hopefully grade for my next belt.
now, i don't know if i will, my Sensei has to okay me to grade, but i hafta have the mind set, that i will, so that i will be in the right mind set of all the things i need to do between now and then. of course there is a lot of technical stuff i need to know completely, but also there is the mental training and the physical training. i need to drop these 37 pounds (no one says i have to drop that many pounds, but i know that i will have a better chance of passing if i don't have this extra weight), and be able to do a crazy amount of push-ups, crunches, kicks, punches, cardio for 3 days straight! it is a very physical, mental, emotional taxing experience, but like some people need to do marathons, or triathlons, or whatever, i need to do this to prove to myself that i can do it!
i am hopeful that the grading will be goal i need to keep me focused! maybe it will keep me scared enough to stay on track, LOL!