Saturday, May 18, 2013
What a time I had the last few weeks. I got to do our final debriefing of our practicums for the International and Indigenous Specializations. It was wonderful. I was able to see highlights of everyone elseís practicums all over the world. It was very good to see everyone again. I graduated with some wonderful teachers. On Facebook this week, some are posting that they have accepted jobs all over the world. I am staying on the Island this year and so job postings do not happen until June 15. Realistically, I will be substituting this year. You never know, but most people sub for years before they get a classroom. I still have my job at Advantage that I had throughout my studies. This year I have Lavinia throughout the school year. I donít want to take her somewhere away from everyone she knows and ignore her because of my work. Instead, I will wait a year to pursue my classroom off island. Of course, if I happen to luck out and get one on the island that would be fantastic.
Then after the debriefing, we had our grad banquet. It was held at the PEI brewery company. It was a fairly new venue. The food was out of this world. I was able to see even more of my fellow graduates that I did not see the night before. It was a great time.
The next day was graduation. It was a very long day because I graduated in the morning convocation and my nephew Mitch and my cousin Daniel graduated in the second convocation. Of course we would not have had the same service. Lavinia and I wandered around Charlottetown since it was too cold at Victoria Park (although we did spend some time there too).
I also took her home on Sunday. It was an adventure as always. We girls love our road trips. Fun as it was with Lavinia on the way to Liverpool, the real adventure was on the way home. My van would not keep a charge and I had to have it charged before I left. Then in Halifax, I had to stop to use the bathroom and needed another charge. I saw a policeman and asked him for a boost. He could not as the lights and computer are all run through the battery and they were not allowed to charge. Then I found a grandfather looking type man and asked him if he wouldn't mind giving me a boost. He tried and ended up calling CAA for me. I bought him a coffee while we were waiting and I ended up talking about my practicum in Membertou and then got into native spirituality. Now I do believe in Jesus and the Bible but the little I know about native spirituality, I find very cool and interesting. He started talking to me about the Baha'i faith which he was. It was also quite interesting as well. It was similar to native spirituality in that the focus is on inner peace and the individual journey. Actually, that is what I believe the Bible is all about as well but historically the church's power and influence in society has brought up leaders to separate and divide those who are different and individual thinkers instead of celebrating those differences. It was very interesting and because of his help, I managed to make it home.
Then once I got home, I was able to have a great time and a little romance as well. It was very exciting and I was looking forward to it for some time. I wish it could have been longer, but what can you do? I am at a very weird place in my life. I really can't have anything serious although that is my tendency to do that. Then I limit myself to options out there. Right now, I have a plan for next year on the Island. Then the possibilities are endless. I could find a class anywhere in the world. These are exciting times for sure.
I went to Lennox Island with a good friend of mine. I got a shirt that I wanted to get for some time now. It is really cool. I also got a spirit stone with a snake on it. The snake represents Independence and Shrewdness. The stone is a reminder of what I am trying to focus on achieving in my life. I definitely need to be more independent. It was very scary when things were bad with Danny and I, and I was not able to kick him out. I needed him financially, and felt quite trapped in the position that I was stuck. It is a scary place to be. When I was with Jason, I did not feel as trapped with him but I think it might have been because I was trapped by my own mind and will power to not divorce. I think if I were to be in another serious relationship, I would want to begin being independent. Less baggage so to speak with not strain the relationship so much. It is also much better to be together because you want to be together and enjoy each other rather than be together because you have to be. I like the shrewdness as well, because I am going to have to be shrewd to make it. I typically am a very practical person but do know that I lose all my brains when it comes to men. Maybe the shrewdness will help keep me grounded in reality.