Saturday, May 18, 2013
The last time I blogged I set out a real solid plan for myself to continue blogging, to exercise, to set goals and to eat healthy. However, that did not happen... shortly after blogging that one time I never blogged again - I never followed through with my action steps. I could give a million excuses as to why I did not follow through.
However, I know why I didn't follow through. I got distracted. My younger brother passed away a few months before that post at age 20 on 11/29/10. I think up from November till July I was completely numb to his death. It finally set in, in August/September. In my grief I forgot about my health. I gained a whole thirty pounds after entering a full-time therapy program. Going from 157 to 187. It almost killed me.
Then I got sick. With abdominal issues and biliary disease. Most likely from the weight-gain. In 2012 my life changed drastically again. I went from no pain to pain once every month that drove me to the ER, then once every two weeks I was in ER, it went all the way to a point where I was in such critical pain I was in the ER twice a week with about 35 hospitalizations under my belt.
They found that I had a Sphincter of Oddi dsyfunction and needed a procedure to fix my spasming inner muscles known as an ERCP at the beginning of 2013. I dropped the 30pounds I had gained in 2011 by being sick, so it wasn't really the healthiest way to lose weight and it didn't fix my abdominal issues.
Through this year I've had a second ERCP as well as my gallbladder removed most recently. Where I spent 24 days in the hospital followed by a seven day break and another 17 day stay. I just got out yesterday from the 17 day stay after they did a nerve block that stopped the pain in my stomach. I still have signs of abdominal pain, my legs, back, arms and hands hurt which is an indication that my stomach isn't that great but at least I don't feel the pain in my abdomen which makes it that much bearable.
Today, I want to keep a walking routine and eat healthy so that I can feel better and physically strengthen my body. Being healthy is now about more than losing weight - its about working hard to feel better both physically and emotionally.