Saturday, May 18, 2013
I honestly am not sure if I'd be able to 'last' this long, but it has now been 16 days of complete success of avoiding white breads and starches. It's been hard at times, but honestly, once I set it in my mind that I don't want any of those foods, it's easier. I know that Sparkpeople doesn't endorse eliminating foods, but this has helped me so much. Those foods are NOT healthy, and I'm actually not depriving myself because I still allow myself treats-just healthier ones. I am seriously thinking about whether or not I could do this indefinitely. I'm starting to think that I could. sure, there would be the one slice of birthday cake here and there, but my definition of 'moderation' is definitely going to need to change. Moderation usually meant "as long as I can fit it into my calorie allowance" but I'm starting to think that maybe-especially with these types of foods, moderation should mean more like "once every couple of months". I don't have to give them up forever. I do however, want to continue living this healthy lifestyle that I have established for myself. I seriously feel empowered knowing that I am choosing not to eat those bad foods. I don't ever say "I can't have them". Instead I always say "I don't WANT them" because it keeps the power in my hands to say it that way. I always have a choice when it comes to what goes into my mouth.
As far as everything else is concerned, I've been doing more strength-training exercises and boot camp type exercises to add to the cardio I already to. I can feel my muscles becoming more developed and I love how that feels! I've already lost about 8 pounds this month, but I'm sure that it will slow down eventually. My goal for this year is to get below 200 pounds. I have just over 6 months to drop about 40 pounds. That's nice and slow, and definitely do-able.
I feel really good about everything. Next week begins week 8 of school, so I literally have 3 weeks left before a nice long summer vacation. I applied for a job, and though they haven't gotten back to me yet, I was told by a class mate who works there (and referred me, noting that they were short-handed) that it could take up to a month to get back to me. I don't want to put all my hope into this, but it would be SO nice if I could get that job! It'd be nice to have something to do with my free time, and it would be great to help supplement my financial aid especially because next year will be a little tighter.
I also wanted to give a huge
to everyone who has supported me on this site! I know I don't always get a chance to go and personally thank you, and I know I should. Your words of encouragement and understanding really help me and motivate me to continue. I enjoy hearing different insights and opinions and do really take them to heart.
Thank you so much!