With some spring weather finally rolling around, I have been eager to clean out closets, drawers, etc. Ready to get rid of items that don't fit or that I don't wear anymore. I have lots of clothes (read that *too many*) from my teaching days and many of them just don't "fit' my retired lifestyle or my body. I've been looking at lots of stuff for over 4 years and am ready to clean out and simplify my clothing options.
So I started with my drawers. Yeah, yeah. Boring stuff. No excitement in getting rid of a drawer full of old turtlenecks I haven't worn in over 5 years. Gone. Tee shirts; misshapen, stained, too short, too tight, etc. Gone.
Moving to some shelves I use. (I told you I have too many clothes for a retired lady!). Old workout clothes. Pilled, too small, misshapen. Those are gone. But, I'm still left with quite a supply. HMMMMM.......maybe I'm not wearing these often enough!
Then to the closet(s). Yeah, yeah, you know the drill---too many clothes.......... Blouses that haven't been worn in years. Blouses that won't button without some major pulling. Blouses I loved.....Gone. Still have enough for me. Sweater vests. Really?? Same old story--haven't been worn and most don't fit anymore (mainly because they're from the "cropped" top era and are too short!)
Now here, well, here's where it gets interesting. Pants.
As a sped preschool teacher I wore twills every day. I still have a lot of them (I know, none of us are surprised by this!) So I decide to try on EVERY pair. Mistake? Maybe. Many just "almost" fit but have been in that category for a number of years. Many are not even close to fitting and have been in that category even longer. Some more recently purchased are fine and make me smile. Here's the dilemma: every pair of "almost" made me feel negative. Sad, angry, embarrassed and all of these thoughts were about ME. Why am I so fat? Why can't I lose the weight? I wish I was still that size. (I will tell you my age but struggle to share my weight or size with anyone--even family) Then my mind goes to that "I'm gonna lose this weight and wear these pants!!" Hmmm........haven't lost the weight in a number of years, I have decided to NOT focus on numbers (size or weight) but to focus on feeling good about myself and being healthy. I got rid of all of those pants that don't fit. Yeah, my pants section of my closet is pretty skimpy but I think I did the right thing.
I read the article today about getting rid of your skinny jeans. And, I found it a positive to ridding myself of those pants. Some really good points and I think that's my frame of mind. I still have lots of work to do on myself as now I look at the remaining pants and I know the number in them does not make me happy. But it is who I am right now. I need to accept me NOW. If I should happen to lose that weight, I will get to buy new clothes that are appropriate to my lifestyle.
I'm sorry I have rambled on about this. If you're still reading, I think this whole purging of clothes was more emotional and thought provoking than I had anticipated. I need some time to think this through and incorporate my thoughts and feelings into ME.
The really bad news?? I haven't finished the job!!