Saturday, May 18, 2013
I am come to realize that I am a all or nothing type person. I am either all for eating right and exercising or if I make one ďmistakeĒ I am completely off everything and have the whole, what does it matter mentality. I feel it is a big step to realize this fact, and now I know what I have to work on to make this work. One bad food choice isnít going to hurt, I need to continue on like it never happened. I need to hide my scale, I base everything off the stupid number and I only get frustrated when I donít see it go down and it makes me want to give up. I need to realize that the number only means so much. It needs to be able how I feel. I need to push myself to do at least 10 minutes of something that resembles movement everyday. Even if it is just walking up and down the stairs, I need to move. I have a long ways to go. I have alot of self work to do and I am the only one that can do it. I canít rely on anyone else but me to do this. It excites me, yet it scares me. I see all these people who have lost so much weight and I realize that could be me. I just havenít been working hard enough, and I get discouraged and want to give up. Then I realize that I need to be the one doing it and base my success of me, not someone else.