Pushed To Tears
Saturday, May 18, 2013
Today. Was. Terrible.
First of all, the scale says I gained half a pound, even though I haven't consumed enough calories for that to be so (unless I'm way, way off on tracking my food!). On top of that, I was running super late and unable to make my lunch because I had to be at work an hour early for a HR meeting going over the new employee handbook. I know. What a great way to start the day *sarcasm*.
Well, the HR meeting took two hours and my whole shift started work an hour late. On top of that the previous shift left us behind and my shift's supervisor up and disappeared (usually a bad sign). Ugh. The worst part was feeling like a failure, because I struggled so hard to get work done and ended up being a huge drag; and at the end of the shift, the stand-in supervisor told me there were multiple patients that I missed on my computer! Considering I try my very best not to let stuff like that happen, I was straight up appalled.
Oh, and it didn't help that a co-worker verbally bit my head off in front of everyone and both disrespected and humiliated me.
Needless to say, I was in tears before I could even get out of the parking lot after work. And the best part was coming home to the fact my dogs got in a fight with a wild possum, and now I'm worried to death one of them has a wound and I can't remember when their last rabies vaccination was.
I can't remember the last time I had a day this bad. I feel frustrated, like I'm a failure at my job and at my diet attempts. I wish I knew how to de-stress before going to bed (without a/c in the house it's way too hot for my usual bubble bath, haha). Right now the plan is to drink a heck load of sleepytime tea and hope that tomorrow is magically a better day, and that I drop water weight or something.
Buh. All the crying has left my stomach super upset. Hopefully it helps writing this blog and getting my emotions out and whatnot.
Well. I sincerely hope everyone is having a better day and start to the weekend than I am. I think I'm going to have that bubble bath after all.