Well, THAT'S not the way to go about it...
Friday, May 17, 2013
Well, I did fantastic yesterday. Today, I felt wiped out. I ended up eating about 1,000 calories more than I'm supposed to. And I still feel HUNGRY. On the plus side, I did get some cardio and strength training in, so it's not a complete waste of time.
Before you all gasp in horror, hear me out. My inner child is rebelling. It's hard to be mindful all the time and make decisions on how to eat healthy and exercise and fit it all in. And, I admit, I don't reward myself. I just don't. I always put it off to "later" or choose an excuse to not reward myself, like "oh, you paid the water bill late, so you don't deserve a reward now," or "oh, your kitchen's a superfund cleanup site, so you don't deserve a reward now or ever." And then my inner child (the one that used to go and pillage Little Debbie Fudge Rounds from the cupboard when my mom used to do the EXACT SAME THING to me and my sister about promised rewards) eventually throws a tantrum and the only way I know how to shut my inner child up is with food.
HOWEVER! I have discovered a pattern. When I do not consume enough water or potassium, my inner child gets REALLY cranky. It's hard to rein my inner child in when my levels are already low, but the trick will be to recognize the early warning symptoms and act accordingly. I think that deep down, my inner child is really my inner cave woman who just wants some fruit, and wouldn't you know it, fruit has a lot of water and potassium in it.
Yeah, you could've knocked me over with a feather when I figured that out. I also noticed that I don't itch as much when I am properly potassiumed up and hydrated. *sigh* Tsk.
So, I shall continue to focus on staying consistent, and I really need to come up with a way to reward myself. I mean, especially since I feel so guilty for doing it and find so many excuses. So many! I never knew there were so many excuses in the world for not rewarding yourself. And my system needs to be excuse proof. Because I swear to you I would use the weather as an excuse not to reward myself. I honestly would. I'd be a terrible employer and an even worse parent.