Friday, May 17, 2013
Never before. Never before in my life have I been this much. I'm not saying that I'm severely overweight. But look. I was supposed to be at 119 lbs by now. I was going from 130 to 110. I had gotten down to 124 at one point. And now look at me... I had to restart my goals. Because in a matter of three weeks. I gained 8 POUNDS.... I am going to cry. Now instead of having a fit and ready body by the beginning of summer, I'll be lucky if I get there by August 3rd.
I'm working out. I've been doing crossfit. But not the terrible heavy lifting kill yourself and get huge muscles crossfit. Just the bootcamp. A lot of pushups box jumps pull ups running you name it. Granted I've only done it a couple times, but I'm still doing it.
Look, I think this whole workout thing is actually blowing back up right into my face, as well as my stomach, thighs, butt and arms. Since I'm working out and in the mindset of working out, and since I'm now at home for the summer with any food I want in 5 feet of distance from me, I'm hungrier, and therefore am eating more. Much more apparently, than I should be eating. But I can't help it! Working out makes me hungry, and since I'm hungry and am in the mindset of "Oh, I've been working out! This isn't bad for me because I need the carbs/protein for my workout" I have as a result gained much more than what I was ever wanting. At the beginning of the year when I wasn't even trying to lose anything at all? I lost 10 pounds. Now? I've gained 10.
I'm going on a run... We'll see if I can try to kickstart this all back and I can lose some weight... Overall though at this point I'm just kind of devastated. Severely devastated in fact... Sigh... Wish me luck... Here we go again.