Friday, May 17, 2013
I am happy it's Friday. We have a holiday on Monday
. I am thinking about participating in a group bike ride. It's at 6a
. I signed up to be a volunteer at a LPGA Golf tournament - May 23 - 26. They have training this Sat. 9a - 11a
As you can tell I love my bed.
I was chatting with a fellow Sparker about social phobia. I don't particularly like socializing. Anyway, I am trying to moderate that - so I called a friend who recently had back surgery and is required to be at home for several months. I haven't spoken to her in a long time, but a mutual friend keeps me up-to-date. I didn't know what I'd say when I called (phobia) but anyway we managed to strike up a conversation. She inquired what I'd been up to - so I told her about the last marathon. She thought I had stopped marathoning and then I told her I had changed the times I went out and why - I had a disagreement with my running group and I didn't want to see them when I'm training. She gave me a lecture on why I was wrong to act the way I did (she's right - but it feels good). I told her I know it's me I fall out with all groups I've joined. She couldn't appreciate that I wouldn't want to conform.
I'm not a conformist and hence I don't like to socialize. The false sentiments and idle conversations. The one upmanship, comparative behaviour and dilution of thoughts. It was nice to talk to her but it underscored why I retreat into myself. This type of interaction will cause me to lose Focus. This was the funny thing that happened....