Friday, May 17, 2013
This week I didn't feel I was as careful as last week, nevertheless the scales said that I lost one kg or 2.2lb. I won't argue and will take whatever loss I achieve. I've taken to wearing my tight jeans so I'm reminded that I want to feel comfortable; it's an incentive to eat less.
My mindfulness based stress reduction MBSR course is going well, thanks to the reading material and the cds. I don't get much out of the classes because there is too much emphasis on the meditation and less on the teachings. I suppose people need that, as not many of them are practicing at home and I am, but I'd like it to be more instructive as well. Another problem is that the instructor is also speaking in his second language (as i am) and his accent together with my hearing problems are an obstacle.
I'm starting to feel that if I don't do some kind of mindfulness meditation a day, I sense that something is missing.
Mother’s days went well in spite of a v poisonous email from my mum. I spent most of the day doing a huge slide show of my MIL that passed away last July and then I took DH out for dinner to a new Indian and we watched it in the tablet. I thought that would help him but his drinking still worries me. I thought I might go to al-anon meetings as I think I'm doing the opposite of what I should be doing, by getting upset about his inability to cut down.
It's not a huge amount by Australian standards (5 std drinks) but it's every day and it shows: he falls asleep v early and has difficulty thinking so it's like being with a corpse after dinner. I resent the fact that most women do everything to fight back the ageing process and men let themselves go as if it was nothing. He is 10 years older than me and he should be doing everything he can to remain as young and healthy as possible, not destroying his brain even more with alcohol.
We have a lot of work and I have a new helper and she’s good but I don't like her. What a problem, no fault on how she works, just an intuitive dislike. This makes working a bit stressful: I have to make sure she doesn't notice this because it's completely unfounded.
On Sunday I'm going to the open art studios at Mt Tamborine with two of my girl friends all day, can't wait to get away with other females and share the art and the landscape.
Life is good!