Thursday, May 16, 2013
Rainy this morning, which meant that for the first time the hubby and I did our morning jog using the treadmills in our apartment complex's gym. I was used to the river path, so it was definitely different, but once I got used to the treadmill it was actually kind of nice. And the interesting thing, as I looked at my reflection in the like 8 hundred thousand mirrors they seem to have, I thought I looked pretty awesome.
Sure, I was beet red, and I certainly still have a lot of weight to lose, so I didn't look like any of those skinny girls that have been running for years and can run for 45 minutes on a treadmill without stopping. No, I certainly did not look like that. But I did look like someone who was making healthy choices. I looked like someone who could actually jog with out feeling like they were going to pass out. I looked like someone who was determined to keep moving in the right direction. And best of all I looked like someone who was starting to be happy with herself.
As some of my previous posts show, sometimes it's hard for me to remember how great I'm really doing. I get caught up in figuring out how much further I have to go, or wondering why nobody else has commented on my changes, or just feeling frustrated that I'm not changing fast enough. But it's moments like this morning that remind me that I'm really making positive changes in my life. It's not my official weigh day, but I checked this morning and came in at 205.6. At 202 my bmi will be 29.8, and I will no longer be obese. That could happen as soon as a week or two from today. My waist has gone down another inch, putting me at 37 inches (I started at a tight 42 inches). When I looked in those mirrors in the gym, I saw that there really was less of my tummy sticking out, and I could picture how it's going to keep on shrinking.
I don't tell myself this enough, and half the times I do I don't really believe it, but here's the truth: I am amazing. I am changing myself and my life, to become the healthy person I've always wanted to be.
And you know what? You all are amazing too. The fact that you are here, reading this blog, means you are part of SparkPeople, and you are working on making healthy changes in your own life. So, if you haven't done it recently, take a moment and tell yourself how awesome you are. Focus on what you've done, not what's left to do, and realize that every step in the right direction, no matter how small, is something to be proud of.