Thursday, May 16, 2013
Well things have been very crazy for me lately. I don't even know where to start.
I guess I can start with the fact that last Sunday May 5th, I got sick with an upper respiratory infection. Super fun right? Well I felt like complete crap & am still sick now more then a week & a half later. I went to the doctor & they were pretty much like get rest & fluids lol. I was so sick the first week I pretty much did nothing but sleep! I also has the worst earache imaginable but luckily it is not an ear infection.
Anyways that really sucked. Being so sick my apartment fell apart. My husband & roommate did nothing ofcourse....the mess stressed me out like hell on top of it.
Then this Sunday my husband left town to visit his mom, I was still sick. And he came back late monday night. I was pretty stressed over a million things & super worried about my ear because the pain was really bad & the last time I had gotten sick with an ear ache my ear drum ruptured and it was really bad & scary. I was mad that my husband still had not gotten the insurance fixed.
So anyways he came home and we got into a huge fight over stupid stuff. He was feeling sick too then so we were both sick and cranky. But the fight got bad....
He kicked me and then hit me. I was screaming at him to leave me alone or I would call the police and he told me that they wouldn't believe me, that I had no marks & i would then be homeless because he would kick me out.
Now I am not that crazy girl who is like my husband beats me and I don't see it. No u should never ever hit anyone but sometimes ppl get mad and hit other ppl. I've hit him. And he doesn't hit me so hard I have like black eyes or anything. But yes it was still unacceptable. I did end up having a bruise on my leg as well.
That night I almost took my life. I didn't thankfully, and glad I didn't. But it was a bad night. And the next day he refused to let me use his cellphone to text anyone though I needed to. I had a super sore throat and could barely talk, plus my ear ache made it hard to hear. And my phone doesn't have texting.
Anyways yesterday he got sent home from work because he was too sick and had to go to the doctor for a note saying when he could return to work. So he took us both to the doctor.
Afterwards my sister got a hold of me and I had already told her everything that had happened and she said she was coming to get me lol. We argued about it. It is a really difficult thing for me. I love my pets. I can't have children and my pets are my babies. I love animals often more then people. They have been there for me when no one else have been. Times I was at my very lowest, somehow my cats knew and came & comforted me. i can honestly say I would be dead right now if I hadn't had them to live for. On top of that I feel that I took on these little lifes with a promise to care for them and I can't just abandon them.
But talking it out with her I agreed I would go to visit...for a few months. IDK how long...somewhere between 2-6 months I guess. I can take my rats with me. My cats and birds have to stay for now. I know my husband will care for them.
This all is so sudden. Next Thursday, May 23rd, My sister is coming to get me. She is driving from El Paso Texas to near Buffalo NY. It is a 30 hour drive with no stops! And she is going to try and straight drive that as fast as she can by leaving on Wed & getting here Thursday. CRAZY! Then pick me up and either leave right away & get a hotel later or she will sleep here and then drive back that night. I can't drive so yeah...it will suck but be fun too. Roadtrip! lol
I am scared but excited and sad all at once. I miss my family so much and being with them will be fun and great. But leaving my cats even for alittle bit hurts alot, I will miss them so much. Anything new is also scary. I am planning on getting my drivers license there and a job. Just try to get better and build myself up.
IDK what is going to happen yet its so scary.