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A step each day...


Thursday, May 16, 2013

I am 40! Aughhh, I hate saying that. I look in the mirror and I see an overweight woman who is looking older and older everyday. Some days I feel old, some days I don't. Lately the days of feeling old are more and more frequent. I look in the mirror and I see gray hair. I see lines around my eyes. It seems the dark circles underneath rarely go away. I feel old, I feel tired. I need to take a leap and fix how I see myself!
In the last year I have divorced my husband of 9 years, moved in with my boyfriend and his 2 children, had cervical spine surgery, moved my 18 year old daughter to North Carolina and gained 30 more pounds to my already overweight body!
Yesterday was the day I took the first step and joined SparkPeople!
Today was the day I took step two... I am drinking water and logging what I eat!
I can succeed at seeing me for a worthwhile person... and not someone who has failed at so many things...
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GREENGEENY2 5/19/2013 4:02PM

    I wish I could hug you. Sounds like you need it. I can't take away that you are feeling old, but you have EARNED those lines and gray hairs. Your body is a product of your life. Dealing with stress...and overcoming it!! This past year has been a doozy for you, don't look at the outside as bad, look at it as awards for all you have been through. As far as the weight goes, unfortunately we all have gained weight :( Or we wouldn't be here! And, now you have an opportunity to change that. With a great support system. Good luck on your journey!!

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KITTYFANTASTIC 5/17/2013 8:53AM

    I understand where your coming from! I'll be 40 in July and since January I've been trying to change my lifestyle so that I'd been healthier and weigh less by then. I've had a rough beginning of the year and have fallen off the wagon many times. Instead of being discouraged, I began to make changes again. I have 2 months to go!

Do small things everyday to get you to where you want to be! Don't forget even great minds failed before they arrived at their genius discovery, invention, etc.. you know what I mean!

Congrats on making it to your 4th decade!!

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STEVEN2GO2 5/17/2013 3:48AM

    Hey, I am 48 now you make me feel old. Congrats on taking the step to join SP! I hope you can accomplish your goals here! Like you said one day at a time and one moment at a time!

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JLEMUS1 5/16/2013 12:36PM

    Just say your 20 times 2, that's what I would say when I was 40..so long ago..hahaha emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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LINDACONNER 5/16/2013 12:15PM

    LOL, you are right... I am doing this for me this time around. I have yo yo'd with diets for a lot of years, but I was always trying to do it for someone else... this time it is for me. I am with a man who loves me for me... he met me fat and is still with me... I didn't make such good choices before. I was always trying to be what someone else would like... but now I want to like who I am and how I look. I want to be healthy for my children and set good examples for them. So this time... I am going to make it happen! I am worth it... emoticon emoticon

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NGCHILD 5/16/2013 11:38AM

    Don't make 40 sound so terrible! (I will be 42 in October) This is YOUR year. The year you do something for you! You are worth it. The gray hair and the wrinkles make us who we are -- I have plenty of them too. Embrace them or color the gray like I do. It puts a spring in my step for sure!

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Take one day at a time. You ARE doing it!!

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