Okay, I went to Bunnings and got more paint to paint the remaining 3 walls of our bedroom... husband thinks I'm going psycho... yet he's used to it. So I will go on painting tonight...
I accidentally went over my calories today. That was silly, but worse things happen at sea. The stupidity only started after that, thinking: "Ou well, I'm over already, so what???" And I ate two pieces of chocolate more and 2 jelly snakes. Some people might think it ain't no big deal, yet it was just so... so... without reason.. or sense... just eating it, because I was over already... that was just plain stupid. Ou well, my teeth are brushed, flossed and the annoying taste of a fluoride mouthwash still lingers. No more temptation to eat any more tonight, luckily.
Isn't it funny how differently you see yourself at times??? I look at my reflection in the mirror just in my undies and think that nothing much has changed, and where exactly did I loose those 9kg again???? I know, that I have slimmed down in those areas I always struggle with (tummy, waist, hips)as well, yet somehow my vision seems to be corrupted when looking at myself. Then I get compliments and of course that feels really great, yet I think: "9kg, no big deal, it isn't even two digits". Yet I don't want to continue thinking that way!!!!And the best therapy to stop thinking: "Nothing much has changed" is looking back at some old photos. There aren't many around, mind you... all deleted in disgust yet I found some, and I can actually SEE how much HAS changed. There is still a fair bit of wobble around my middle, yet... yet... I'm almost a bit embarrassed to post those before pics (that's why I've avoided it so far, yet I reckon it's part of letting go and never EVER going back there!!!!! So here goes the before
My sister in law posted this one on facebook... I wondered if she was suicidal and wanted me to do the killing for her... HOW could she, I look like a big purple blob!!!
Those jeans were my only fitting pair for... like a year or so... and fitting isn't even the right term to describe them...
My legs have always been my strong point, yet hiding my belly behind kids never really works now, doesn't it????
To be honest, I don't really have "after" or "in progress" photos... I'm still rather shy of the camera, afraid that it might show me in a way which still makes me feel big. Yet I like this one of my family... they are a great bunch
Somehow I just like taking pics of my face, with my quirky but extremely cute boys.
So, looking at these pictures has really helped me to feel so much better, but now I must run and finish painting.