Wednesday, May 15, 2013
I know that I have not been doing my best here on sparkpeople and it is bc life has gotten in the way..but not in the good way but in a horrible way.
On April 8, 2013 I received a phone call that I never in a million years wanted. My mom called me at 1:32am crying so hard I could barely understand her. I ran to her apartment that is right across the hall. After a short conversation with her and a phone call to my cousin Darrin..i was told that my dad had been shot in what was stated as a home invasion..while he was sleeping and had died.
this has shaken me to my core..i am not the same person i was. i was the type of person that never had a problem being around people. but now i have to take anxiety meds ( one that i take at night that is time release and then one that i have in my purse incase of emergencies..that works in 30 minutes of taking it). I am just getting used to the fact that i can not go into walmart without having a anxiety attack if i am not on my meds.
this Saturday may 18th i will be graduating from culinary school and my dad will not be there to see me walk. i will receive my associate of applied science in baking and pastry and then i will receive title certified pastry culinarian.
I hopefully start working next week at Panera Bread as a baker. I have had the shadow and the interview and now i am just waiting on the background check and i have to say i am so vanilla i know that is going to come back ok!
i know that life is not meant to be easy but this past couple of months have been very hard. and right now i am still numb and i know i will be for a while.