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I know I have been MIA but this is why...

Wednesday, May 15, 2013

I know that I have not been doing my best here on sparkpeople and it is bc life has gotten in the way..but not in the good way but in a horrible way.

On April 8, 2013 I received a phone call that I never in a million years wanted. My mom called me at 1:32am crying so hard I could barely understand her. I ran to her apartment that is right across the hall. After a short conversation with her and a phone call to my cousin Darrin..i was told that my dad had been shot in what was stated as a home invasion..while he was sleeping and had died.

this has shaken me to my core..i am not the same person i was. i was the type of person that never had a problem being around people. but now i have to take anxiety meds ( one that i take at night that is time release and then one that i have in my purse incase of emergencies..that works in 30 minutes of taking it). I am just getting used to the fact that i can not go into walmart without having a anxiety attack if i am not on my meds.

this Saturday may 18th i will be graduating from culinary school and my dad will not be there to see me walk. i will receive my associate of applied science in baking and pastry and then i will receive title certified pastry culinarian.

I hopefully start working next week at Panera Bread as a baker. I have had the shadow and the interview and now i am just waiting on the background check and i have to say i am so vanilla i know that is going to come back ok!

i know that life is not meant to be easy but this past couple of months have been very hard. and right now i am still numb and i know i will be for a while.

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    What you have been through is truly horrific and my heart goes out to you. On the flip side I am very proud for your accomplishment and while your dad won't be there in person, he will be there in your heart and you will still feel the pride he has in you. emoticon
    1733 days ago
    Oh my God! That is so truly horrible. I can't even begin to imagine what you are going through. Please please take care of yourself and be kind to yourself.
    1741 days ago
    Hugs to you! And congrats as well! What a bittersweet moment.

    1741 days ago
    I am so very sorry emoticon
    1741 days ago
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