Wednesday, May 15, 2013
Ugh! I hate when things happen that involve my family who don't speak to me. Last night, I got a call from the one aunt who I am still close to. She is my mother's sister. She wanted to let me know that my sister had called my cousin to tell her that my aunt passed away. The aunt who passed away is my dad's sister. I haven't seen her for about 7 years. I saw her at my mother's funeral, but she said nothing to me. I talked to her twice since my mother passed away, but she more or less blew me off. Her kids never invited us to anything they have had as a family. My cousin didn't even invite me to her wedding. She invited my mother and my sisters and brother, but not me or my husband.
I know my Aunt expects me to go to the funeral, but I just have no desire to. I felt nothing when I heard she died. I feel nothing for any of them. The only thing that bothers me is how things will "look" to others. For all anybody knows, I don't even know about this. If Shirley hadn't called, I wouldn't have a clue. None of my cousins or my siblings called. I guess they really do what me out of the family.
I can't be a hypocrite. None of these people mean anything to me. They have made it clear over the years that I mean nothing to them either so I have to just stop stressing about it. It bothered me a lot in my aunt's obituary none of her siblings were mentioned. Not my dad or my other aunts. I think that is bad form.
Oh well...once again it proves you can't pick your family only your friends.
On another note, I did take Celebrex for my back and it really helped. My UC doc said I can take it with the UC. I think you just need to break the pain cycle. I heard back from the epidural doc and I am going for the second one on Tuesday. He thinks also that my back is just radiating pain from my neck. I really hope the second one works. The first one really helped my neck and shoulders. I guess the medication didn't go far enough down for my back.