The closest picture I can find of my vision for B.G.'s garden
I had a beautiful walk today. I decided to just walk around my backyard and on the large terrace under my deck because I just did not feel like really being out in public today because I was feeling so emotional, yet I did want to get in my exercise. At first as I was walking I was really sad and missing Mom. I happened to be listening to some songs that we had played continuously on my iPad during the last few days of Mom's life (when she was in a comatose state and couldn't communicate with us). We wanted her to have some of her favorite music playing and we always had someone there with her at her bedside just holding her hand and talking to her. All those feelings during that last week came flooding back to me and I was overcome with this overwhelming longing just to sit and talk with Mom. At one point during the walk I was just sobbing.
Chris Tomlin- Shout To The Lord
Jadon Lavik- My Father's World
Jadon Lavik - I Surrender All
As the walk progressed, I became much more calm and started really enjoying the feeling of the warm sun shining and the gentle breeze blowing. Several different kinds of birds kept me company during my walk and were flitting from tree to tree and singing for me....I saw a robin, a pretty red cardinal, some doves, some jays, and these tiny little birds (maybe finches or wrens). The cardinal was really singing up a storm and seemed to follow me throughout my walk flying from tree to tree and at one point sitting on my next door neighbor's roof. It was almost as if my mom was there, letting me know that she was close by. I felt her gentle presence and was comforted. Before I knew it 80 minutes had passed by and I feel so much more at peace and my workout was done.
As I walked I was thinking about a great idea that my mother-in-law had. She suggested that I designate a corner in my back yard to make a garden for my mom and whenever I was really missing her I could go sit in her garden and feel close to her. She suggested that I take some of the flowers that people sent and plant them in the garden and each year on Mom's birthday and on Mother's Day to add a small plant in her memory. She suggested that I pick out a plant that reminded me of Mom, put in some engraved garden stones, statuaries, and a pretty garden bench or chair. What a great idea, Oma! I thought of all the flowers that Mom loved and tried to envision how I wanted to design the garden.
Mom loved blue, purple, lavender, and white flowers...blue hydrangeas, purple irises, lavender hyacinthes, and white roses, etc. She loved angels and hearts, so I could add an angel statuary and heart garden stones. I have a white wicker chair that I could put in the garden until I find the perfect bench or chair. She loved wind chimes so I would love to find a pretty iron stand that I could hang some wind chimes on. My daughter Courtney brought B.G. a pretty blue hydrangea on the last day that she came to visit Mom and that could be the first thing that I plant in the garden.
I love the idea of B,G.'s garden! In case you are wondering...B.G. is what Mom's grandchildren called her. It stands for Beautiful Grandmother and that was such a perfect name for her. She was truly beautiful both inside and out.
Mom when she was around 19 years old
A fairly recent picture of Mom when she was on a trip to Myrtle Beach with her girlfriends.