Wednesday, May 15, 2013
12 weeks ago I had reconstructive foot/ankle/heel surgery and it is a happy thing to be 12 weeks on this side of things. I definitely have gained weight during this time, but I was already in a "lost" place before surgery. Surgery just gave me an excuse to make more dismal choices to become ever more lost on this journey of mine. In fact, it has been close to a year since I got to that 50 pound weight loss and now I have put over half of it back on. Wow, that is a lot to say out loud and a lot to consider. I think that I remember what it was like to feel strong in this area of healthy choices. As I recall the more I made solid choices, the more success I enjoyed and the more I wanted to make good choices. It was a cycle of mindful eating, good activity and accountability that yielded good results. What I planted, I was able to harvest. And that has been true in the reverse-I have planted mindless eating, no accountability and have harvested weight gain and a lost place on this journey. It's not fun to be lost, is it? I sure don't enjoy it. There is my very own personal GPS on Spark People that is just waiting to help me navigate. So, what I am waiting for? Do I want to stay lost and feel sorry for myself about how lost I am, or am I ready to plug that GPS back in and power up.? Power Up!