Wednesday, May 15, 2013
You can start a new job & then lose it.
You can start volunteering at a crisis hotline, then lose interest due to burn out & not enough self-care.
You can start another new job, then lose it due to lack of funding.
You can apply to grad school but have to start over again due to a computer crash.
You find out that you are alone in the universe.
You can forget all of your goals & realize that you've gained most of your weight back only to end up much worse than before.
You get a year older, not necessarily any wiser than before but stuck with the same stupid eating habits.
You could lose some friends & relatives to cancer.
You could support other friends & relatives to overcome their cancer.
You can lose yourself in a downward spiral struggling to survive only when you realize that you are drowning.
You can lose interest in everything around you, hobbies, distractions, the will to live.
You realize that a lot can happen in a year, good but mostly bad.
Hurricane Sandy / Newtown, CT / Boston Marathon bombing / gun law reform
You can realize that there's still a lot to be thankful for even if things aren't going your way - and haven't been for a very long time.
You can realize that it's still not too late to start again, that success is the result of learning from a multitude of failures.
Despite the difficulty of realization that so much time has past, the only thing stopping me from starting over again, is me.