Headfirst Dive off the Wagon
Wednesday, May 15, 2013
Well, I am back. I wouldn't say I fell off the wagon. I would say I drove the wagon off the side of a cliff and the waqon tumbled down the cliff, smashing into rocks and trees before dramatically shattering into a thousand pieces when it hit the ground below.
I am kind of back to square one now. I am at 200 lbs after getting down to 187. So I gained back 13 lbs. I have worked out a few times in the last month and I haven't been taking care of myself. I am back on here today because last night I found myself in one of those deep dark depressions that I thought I had escaped from and it just sucks because I was feeling so crazy strong when it all went wrong.
I feel so frustrated and disappointed.
I have to stop letting nudges turn into big huge shoves off the track. I am back and I am committing again to get back on track. Back in shape. Step by step. I will do my best.
"Fall down seven times, get up eight."
The year is far from over yet.