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Headfirst Dive off the Wagon

Wednesday, May 15, 2013

Well, I am back. I wouldn't say I fell off the wagon. I would say I drove the wagon off the side of a cliff and the waqon tumbled down the cliff, smashing into rocks and trees before dramatically shattering into a thousand pieces when it hit the ground below.

I am kind of back to square one now. I am at 200 lbs after getting down to 187. So I gained back 13 lbs. I have worked out a few times in the last month and I haven't been taking care of myself. I am back on here today because last night I found myself in one of those deep dark depressions that I thought I had escaped from and it just sucks because I was feeling so crazy strong when it all went wrong.

I feel so frustrated and disappointed.

I have to stop letting nudges turn into big huge shoves off the track. I am back and I am committing again to get back on track. Back in shape. Step by step. I will do my best.

"Fall down seven times, get up eight."

The year is far from over yet.
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  • TAYSMOM77642
    Oh Raya come back to us! You are such an inspiration plus you were a great push for me last round. You can do this! I'm rooting for you and I'm here if you need me.
    1747 days ago
    I came across the idea here on Spark of "One step back? Two steps forward". We CAN do this!
    1763 days ago
    Don't look back what is done is done. Just keep looking forward one step at a time.
    Gee if we only had an answer to why we do this to ourselves hey!

    good you are back on track that is all that matters... emoticon
    1767 days ago
    " No matter how far you have gone on a wrong road, turn back." emoticon emoticon

    1767 days ago
    I've been on that particular wagon more than a few times!
    1767 days ago
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