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Headfirst Dive off the Wagon

Wednesday, May 15, 2013

Well, I am back. I wouldn't say I fell off the wagon. I would say I drove the wagon off the side of a cliff and the waqon tumbled down the cliff, smashing into rocks and trees before dramatically shattering into a thousand pieces when it hit the ground below.

I am kind of back to square one now. I am at 200 lbs after getting down to 187. So I gained back 13 lbs. I have worked out a few times in the last month and I haven't been taking care of myself. I am back on here today because last night I found myself in one of those deep dark depressions that I thought I had escaped from and it just sucks because I was feeling so crazy strong when it all went wrong.

I feel so frustrated and disappointed.

I have to stop letting nudges turn into big huge shoves off the track. I am back and I am committing again to get back on track. Back in shape. Step by step. I will do my best.

"Fall down seven times, get up eight."

The year is far from over yet.
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  • v TAYSMOM77642
    Oh Raya come back to us! You are such an inspiration plus you were a great push for me last round. You can do this! I'm rooting for you and I'm here if you need me.
    1145 days ago
  • v SUNNYSIDEUPMARY
    I came across the idea here on Spark of "One step back? Two steps forward". We CAN do this!
    1160 days ago
  • v LITTLEDEBI
    Don't look back what is done is done. Just keep looking forward one step at a time.
    Gee if we only had an answer to why we do this to ourselves hey!

    good you are back on track that is all that matters... emoticon
    1164 days ago
  • v XXMILAXX
    " No matter how far you have gone on a wrong road, turn back." emoticon emoticon

    1165 days ago
  • v GRACIEC
    I've been on that particular wagon more than a few times!
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    1165 days ago
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